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我不会倒！谁叫我是周杰伦

2011-03-07T19:41:00.003+08:00

周杰倫的故事

來自破裂家庭，願意為媽媽付出一切
因為在他最孤獨最無助的時候，是媽媽用溫暖愛的臂膀支撐著他周杰倫，萬千青少年為他的歌聲而癡迷、崇拜的一位天皇巨星，對母親葉惠美有著似海深情，因為在他最孤獨最無助的時候，是媽媽用溫暖愛的臂膀支撐著他。所以周杰倫一直說，「只要媽媽高興，我願意為她付出一切！」

音樂天才破裂的家周杰倫出生於1979年1月，媽媽葉惠美是台北淡江小學的美術老師，爸爸是淡江中學的物理老師。周杰倫4歲讀幼稚園時，葉惠美把他送到淡江山葉幼兒音樂班學鋼琴。平時活潑好動的小杰倫一站到鋼琴面前，竟是出奇的安靜，聽老師彈奏一遍自己就能復彈出來，老師告訴葉惠美，這孩子很有天分！

為了培養杰倫的音樂素質，葉惠美主張拿出家裡積蓄為杰倫買一架好鋼琴，請最好的鋼琴老師為杰倫輔導。而杰倫的爸爸則認為不必這麼認真，男孩子嘛，隨意一點，沒必要拿出全部積蓄投資。最後，葉惠美還是背著丈夫為杰倫買了一架鋼琴，弄得杰倫爸很不高興。小學三年級時，杰倫偶然聽到世界名曲《天鵝湖》，被大提琴憂傷淒美的曲調迷住了，葉惠美沒和丈夫商量又為杰倫購買了大提琴。

杰倫爸對妻子葉惠美「孤注一擲」的做法嗤之以鼻，他回家就指責葉惠美的不是，家庭裡的溫馨越來越少，爭吵越來越多。

杰倫不知道爸爸為什麼總要找媽媽吵鬧，他用自己稚嫩的詩行記下他的困惑和傷感：

從小到大只有媽媽的溫暖為什麼我爸爸那麼兇如果真的我有一雙翅膀兩雙翅膀隨時出發偷偷出發我一定帶走我媽媽……

這傷感的詩行杰倫後來為它譜了曲，就是那首令萬千歌迷傷感的《爸，我回來了》。

周杰倫初中二年級時，父母終於離婚。14歲的周杰倫寫道：「爸爸媽媽彼此沒有愛，難道這就是生命的真諦？」沉默、倔強和叛逆已經塑造了另一個周杰倫。

世人不識君苦悶中的徘徊周杰倫有音樂天賦，但功課卻很糟。高中聯考總分只有100多分，連普通高中也沒考上，前途一片黯淡，母子倆相對無言，難道兒子就這麼完了？恰好淡江中學第一屆音樂班正在招生，周杰倫考上了。

因為彈得一手好鋼琴，拉得一手好大提琴，又時常活躍在籃球場上，周杰倫成為許多女同學關注和談論的對象。但是，周杰倫卻常常面無表情，很少露出一絲笑容，除了音樂成績出類拔萃以外，其它科目成績幾乎全線紅字，老師們紛紛認為他智力低下，他的英語老師甚至直言不諱對葉惠美說周杰倫有智力障礙。葉惠美陷入了深深的思索，她還是決定要把杰倫培養成才，至少當一個鋼琴師吧。葉惠美沒有指責杰倫，她認為杰倫走到今天冷漠、叛逆的地步是家庭的不和睦造成的，並且深信自己的孩子沒有智力障礙，於是她嚐試用姐弟式的關心來「馴服」周杰倫，規定自己「三不」：不嘮叨、不指責、不脅迫兒子。

果然如老師們的預測，周杰倫沒有考上大學。葉惠美多方打聽後，鼓勵杰倫去考台北大學音樂系，結果他沒有被錄取。周杰倫咬著牙考第二次，還是失敗了。媽媽和外婆外公都為杰倫的前途擔憂，這孩子究竟將來能幹什麼呢？極度迷惘的周杰倫無所事事，只好等待服海軍兵役，這期間，竟得了殭直性脊椎炎，令人沮喪的是這種病無法根治，只能靠藥物緩解，到了晚期全身甚至會像殭屍一樣僵硬，也可能導致癱瘓。葉惠美和外婆說起杰倫就垂淚。

母愛呵護下一飛沖天病緩解一些後，周杰倫到一家餐廳打工，作為端盤工的他因為時常打翻菜盤，每個月的工資幾乎被扣掉了一半。餐廳中有一台鋼琴，一次閒暇時周杰倫彈了一曲《肖邦舞曲》，把老闆驚呆了，老闆靈機一動，叫周杰倫不要端盤子了，就在餐廳彈琴，然後請來電視台記者炒作，不但使得餐廳生意火爆起來，還節約了一大筆請鋼琴師的費用。

葉惠美感受到了杰倫的音樂潛能，她替兒子在台北星光電視台娛樂節目「超猛新人王」報了名。周杰倫精心創作了一首歌曲《夢有翅膀》，但他對自己的演唱實在沒信心，請了一位歌手演唱。演唱者不能理解他的曲風，而他的鋼琴伴奏又顯得怪異，弄得台下聽眾噓聲一片，初出茅廬的一場表演徹底搞砸了。

葉惠美急了，性格內向的她鼓起勇氣找到了主持人吳宗憲，把《夢有翅膀》的曲譜拿給他看。吳宗憲當時是台灣阿爾發音樂公司的老闆，他對周杰倫的第一印象並不好，應付似的拿起曲譜掃了一眼，卻是眼睛一亮，歌譜不僅抄寫得工工整整，而且譜得十分複雜。慧眼的他立即改變了主意：「這孩子還可以，明天叫他到我公司來上班！」

周杰倫進了音樂公司任音樂製作助理，在媽媽的鼓勵下，每天主動幫同事們買盒飯，大家對這個沉默寡言但又勤快的小伙子有了好感。而葉惠美總擔心杰倫冷漠而倔強，又不善言辭，生怕他無意中把老闆和員工們得罪了，於是常常在下班時間站在公司門口，準備一些可口的比薩、炸雞送給員工，請他們包涵杰倫。一來二往，葉惠美對公司員工比周杰倫還熟悉，同事們都知道周杰倫有一個好媽媽。

周杰倫很快創作出大量的歌曲，但讓吳宗憲感到不可理解的是，他創作的歌詞總是怪怪的，音樂圈內幾乎沒有人喜歡。一次，周杰倫又拿著自己的得意之作送給吳宗憲審讀。這次吳宗憲連看都不看，便將那首歌曲揉成一團，隨手丟進身邊的垃圾桶裡去了。周杰倫的眼淚禁不住流了出來。

是放棄還是繼續？媽媽每天來公司門口已經成為一道風景線，如果放棄，太對不起媽媽了，周杰倫硬著頭皮支撐著，他吃住都在辦公室，以每天一首歌的速度進行創作。葉惠美每天晚上都到公司看望杰倫，望著日漸消瘦的兒子，她強忍著不讓自己的淚水流出來，儘量說一些鼓勵的開心的話，然後將杰倫換下的髒衣服拿回去洗乾淨。一連一個多月，吳宗憲每天早上八點鐘上班時，總能準時見到周杰倫新的作品。終於，他被這位小伙子的勤奮和天賦深深地感動了，他「嗅」出了周杰倫的歌曲隱隱有一種味道，答應找歌手演唱他創作的歌曲。

吳宗憲將周杰倫的《眼淚知道》推薦給天王歌星劉德華，劉德華看了一眼就拒絕了。不久，又將他的《雙節棍》推薦給火爆華語歌壇的張惠妹，沒料想，張惠妹也毫不猶豫地拒絕了。吳宗憲決定給周杰倫最後一次機會，讓他自己演唱自己創作的歌曲，如果這樣也不行，他就只好請周杰倫走人了！他將周杰倫叫到辦公室，十分鄭重地說：「阿倫，給你10天的時間，如果你能寫出50首歌，而我可以從中挑出10首，那麼我就幫你出唱片。」

老闆的話刺激得周杰倫興奮不已，他打電話告訴媽媽後就跑到街上買回一大箱方便麵。他想，就是拼了命，也要做最後的搏擊。周杰倫熬紅了雙眼如約寫出了50首歌曲，而且每一首都寫得結構合理，譜得工工整整。吳宗憲終於有了讚許的笑容，他挑選出 10首，2001年初製成了周杰倫的第一張專輯《杰倫》。

公司對這張唱片沒抱多大希望，能收回製作成本就算不錯了。然而《杰倫》橫空出世後，猶如一場猛烈的颱風橫掃台灣，很快被歌迷搶購一空。《杰倫》一舉奪得台灣當年最佳流行音樂演唱專輯、最佳製作人和最佳作曲人三項大獎。《杰倫》的成功讓公司始料不及，讓台灣的歌星們大跌眼鏡，紛紛詢問哪?堳_出來的周杰倫？如果說第一張專輯小有成就的話，那麼，周杰倫第二張專輯《范特西》已經形成了風暴，席捲了大陸、港台、東南亞整個華語歌壇，各種大獎紛至沓來。

周杰倫終於成功了，他深深明白，沒有媽媽黑暗中明燈般的溫暖，他支撐不到今天，媽媽為他一直未再嫁，點點滴滴都是舐犢之情。他將所有的收入都交給媽媽掌管，儘管自己有了公寓，每個週末依然回家，同媽媽、外婆一起享受天倫之樂。

葉惠美更是百感交集，當年丈夫的譏諷、老師的搖頭、生活的艱辛都隨風而去。葉惠美退休後，周杰倫總擔心媽媽寂寞，只要在台灣，他都回家同媽媽住在一起。週末時，他會約上媽媽一起去看午夜場的電影，媽媽喜歡看經典片，周杰倫就陪著看，而周杰倫喜歡看的前衛片，葉惠美也陪著兒子看，幸福的暖流縈繞在母子心間。周杰倫的第四張專輯就叫《葉惠美》，這是兒子獻給母親的禮物。

2011-02-15T21:19:00.001+08:00

Happy Valentines peepers ~

2011-02-15T21:11:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentines peepers !

More about life

2011-01-20T18:56:00.003+08:00

There’s so many things to learn about life. Sometimes certain people may be someone in our hearts, but it doesn’t necessarily means that we’ll be someone in that person’s heart. Everyone on Earth has someone he/she likes and adores, every soul on Earth belong to certain souls, and some souls find that they don't belong anywhere. But the most important thing is to know ourselves, we always belonged to ourselves. It is wrong to think that we don't have anyone to love us and things like that. It ain’t true.

Peepers, always bear in mind: Learn to truly appreciate yourself, behaves and be proud of the way you're, you're unique, and so everyone does.
When it comes down to it, you must first love yourself before you can truly love others and you must love yourself before you can accept that others truly love you.

-"You must love yourself before you love another. By accepting yourself and fully being what you are, your simple presence can make others happy." -

离开地球表面

2011-01-11T22:52:00.002+08:00

感觉信心远离越来越远..
做事总是力不从心地..
总觉得自己怎么越变越差..
许多以前对事物的热情已慢慢熄灭..
心情也变得懒懒散散地
做事漫不经心..
总劝人凡事努力自己却处于放弃状态
运气总不站在我这里..
到底我怎么了
那又有谁能告诉我呢?
谁又能来倾听我的烦恼?
生病了吗?
累了吗?
是我低估了这个世界吗?
是地球自转太快吗?
我想我有点跟不上这节奏了..
好想独自大哭一场..

2010

2010-12-30T22:00:00.016+08:00

Lol..is too lazy to blog lately.Let the piccie do the talking :)
17/11

Christmas Eve 24/12

Girl's Outing 26/12

Genting Trip 27/12

Gathering with girls and teacher 29/12

Mine

Movie time at night :)

Exam day - hard time !

2010-12-01T23:10:00.009+08:00

A very first of December greeted with a disastrous paper which seriously drag me to the hell..

What's gonna happen next? =(

C'mon, Imma ready for it

Jay's ticket today !

2010-11-27T23:28:00.004+08:00

Hot hot ..
Looking forward for this,been awaited it for almost three years :)

Anyone going?!! Can't wait for it ! Im just too excited now
okok, back to reality.gonna fight for the coming 7papers first !
Jia you dude, and pray hard for me !

2010-11-27T16:23:00.004+08:00

LOlx.Had been so busy lately till I did not have time to even just close my eyes for a second.(Bit hyperbola =P )

But today, I had made an exception for myself.Yeah, freed myself from books prison for a few hours to savour every moment of rest and dream I could get - had a long afternoon nap, making lunch with my younger sister, ruined the kitchen, stuck my tummy to the fullest with my favourite grilled pepper bacon and vanilla cookies ice-cream. That was for me to gather enough energy to survive for the coming 7papers,dreadful one,seriously. =)

Well, today is rather odd. I don’t have a title for my column. It’s not that I haven’t got a summary for the day, but it is just that I couldn’t find a right word or phrase to summarise today’s happenings. Anyway, today is just normal. I put many things aside for a while. Yea, I am still kinda depressed at this point of time, as I ran my little fingers across the keys, but sigh, what can I do? Lolx. Trying to study those slide in computer but end up with watching video that posted in FB.haha..what happen to me? Perhaps I'm just too susceptible. Lol..

Lalaaa..imma kinda unconscious now. *Yawning* It must be due to the lack of sleep. Oh well, im gonna take a nap now,again :)

2010-10-02T23:57:00.002+08:00

最近真的很不开心..
很不开心...
很不开心...
许多事情都快把我压地喘不过来,
其实有时并不是无故地耍脾气
只是想保持沉默..

今晚

就让我消失一夜吧

2010-08-31T16:19:00.002+08:00

阳光是满的，世界应该是残缺的。
爱情是满的，时光应该是残缺的。
是谁说过，孤独的人其实不是孤单，只是偶尔感觉寂寞。
萨德说，爱是被扭曲的自由。哪怕相爱是两个人的寂寞，我愿意寂寞千年。
因为爱，我愿意守住残缺

我决定微笑，不再忧伤。
太在乎细节的人生会忽略阳光，温暖和幸福。虽然有些事情是注定无法遗忘的。
幸福总是以一种不为人知的方式温柔的渗透，遇到你的光亮将生活燃爆炸，甜美就这样铺天盖地

安静而美好的继续
我们一直这样下去...

2010-08-17T21:21:00.003+08:00

I like this :)

1.对自己好点，因为一辈子不长；对身边的人好点，因为下辈子不一定能够遇见！
2. 对不起是一种真诚，没关系是一种风度。如果你付出了真诚，却得不到风度，那只能说明对方的无知与粗俗！
3. 如果你知道去哪﹐全世界都會為你讓路。
4.我喜欢你，很久了，等你，也很久了，现在，我要离开，比很久很久还要久......
5. 纯，属虚构。乱，是佳人。
6. 一个人只有一个心脏，却有两个心房。一个住着快乐；一个住着悲伤。不要笑得太大声，不然会吵醒旁边的悲伤。
7.世界上最远的距离不是树与树的距离而是同根生长的树枝却无法在风中相依
8.苹果最光辉的一刻就是砸在牛顿头上！
9.爱情使人忘记时间，时间也使人忘记爱情。
10.分手就是不爱了，那些冠冕堂皇的理由，不是想让对方好过，而是想让自己好过点！
11. 生活累，一小半源于生存，一小半源于攀比。
12.不要让太多昨天占据你的今天！
13. 如果说美貌是推荐信，那么善良就是信用卡！
14. 不吃饭的女人这世上也许还有好几个，不吃醋的女人却连一个也没有。
15.失去的东西，其实从来未曾真正地属于你，也不必惋惜。
16. 无论多豪华的婚礼都不代表幸福婚姻，两个人终生相处和睦与否和筵开几席、多少首饰全无关联。
17.如花美眷，也敌不过似水流年
18. 广告就是告诉别人，钱还可以这么花
19.小三，除法中的余数而已
20.人生的大部分时间里，承诺同义词是束缚，奈何我们向往束缚。
21.力的作用是相互的，除了爱情的力量。
22. 许多人在重组自己的偏见时，还以为自己是在思考。
23.生活中有太多无可奈何的选择。社会就像江湖，总是让人身不由己，言不由衷。
24.我们都是远视眼，模糊了离我们最近的幸福。
25.原来那么爱我的你和那么爱你的我都停滞在曾经的时候,爱情就结束了. {
26.你若先走了，转身时就不要怪我也在背对着你
27.只要你的脚还在地面上，就别把自己看得太轻；只要你还生活在地球上，就别把自己看得太大。
28. 如果你要考验我的耐心，请先把你的耐心准备好。
29. 每个人都是单数...来时是...去时也是.....
30.在我们的爱情里，我一直扮演爱你的角色，分手时别问我为什么分手，问问你自己。
31.人生---下课啦..放学啦..放假啦..毕业啦..混够啦..老啦..后悔啦..死啦...
32.不能在一起就不能在一起吧,其实一辈子也没那么长...
33.古时候就有外星人的记载，因为丈二和尚摸不着头脑
34. 一个人身边的位置只有那麽多,你能给的也只有那麽多,在这个狭小的圈子里,有些人要进来,就有一些人不得不离开
35.很多人，因为寂寞而错爱了一人，但更多的人，因为错爱一人，而寂寞一生 .
36.你可知上天是不公平的你可以選擇愛我或者不愛我而我卻只能選擇愛你或者更愛你
37.人人都觉得永远会很远其实它可能短暂得你都看不见
38.妈妈说人最好不要错过两样东西,最后一班回家的车和一个深爱你的人。
38.时间仍在，是我们在飞逝。
39.我允许你走进我的世界,但不许你在我的世界里走来走去..

Mr.Ahlu

2010-08-01T23:03:00.006+08:00

Some people think that the beauty of reality disappears as you grow older, but the real truth is much different. You merely close your eyes and stop looking. Even in the darkest of times, there is beauty, just look at the sky, smell the scent of flowing grass; see the beauty. There are plenty of things wrong with this world, but even so there is still amazing light. If you don't cherish this light and protect it; it will disappear. Another way of saying this is to stop looking at all the things wrong, all the things you don't have, and start appreciating what you actually do have. It has been said before, but no one seems to be getting the message.

If you look around you might just realize that you had a lot more than you initially thought. Further more by not being grateful for what you have you will probably miss out. You will miss out on the vast enjoyment, fun, and happiness that comes by just simply being grateful for what you had. Cherish your relationships, your fiends, and your family to the best you can. Even if you do this, you must also not forgot to praise one of the most important things of all; you, yourself. Every one of us has a unique soul, like a gem, we all shine with brilliance if held up to the light, but if you keep yourself in the dark then you will never be able to see yourself for the amazing being that you are.

This is a wishing tree.Imagine every brunch of the tree is equivalence to one of your wish. Sometimes it just depends for you to see it is sunrise or sunset. The way you decide your future. Decide it to be good/bright side or bad/dark side.

So ahlu, this is the post specially for you. Never be frown. We will always be there to support you.Remember, never regret on what you had did. :)

2010-07-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

是时侯学会，

如何抽身离开...

2010-07-17T23:04:00.003+08:00

Remember this ?

Your Guardian Angel- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm strong
I have figured out
How this world turns cold
and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find
deep inside me
I can be the one

I will never let you fall(let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all(though it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven[to fade]

Happy 8th months anniversary ❤

A Moment Like This

2010-06-22T21:14:00.002+08:00

What if I told you
It was all meant to be
Would you believe me?
Would you agree?
It's almost that feeling
That we've met before
So tell me that you dont think I'm crazy
When I tell you that love has come here & now

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Ohh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this

Everything changes, but beauty remains
Somethings so tender
I can't explain
Ohh well I may be dreaming
But till I awake
Can't we make this dream last forever
And I cherish all the love that we shared

2010-06-07T23:03:00.001+08:00

生日快乐...

放心吧,

我依然会是

以前的

我

好好照顾自己，要幸福哦 :)

这样的男朋友是真的爱

2010-06-07T23:02:00.001+08:00

１．抱起来很温暖，罗唆起来很烦，在身边讨厌，看不见又很怀念的人。

２．吃剩下一半的面不要浪费，他会接过去帮你吃乾净的人。

３．大冰脚贴在他大腿弄暖，他即使很冷，也不会把你脚踢开的人。

４．一起去大卖场买东西，总是比你多提两大袋，还要空出手牵你的人。

５．月经来，抓到你偷吃红豆冰，会很生气骂你的人。

６．你生大病，他却比你还要辛苦的人。

７．把买卫生棉已经当成每个月记得采买的男人。

８．吵完架做错事，还会厚脸皮跑来牵你手的人。

９．过了n周年的恋爱纪念日後，就会忘记情人节、圣诞节存在的人。

１０．没事一定会窝在你家，有事还是窝在你家，让你开始怀疑他是不是没有朋友的人。

１１．最喜欢看你开心的大笑，然後也对著你傻笑的人。

１２．漏接你电话，就会打爆你手机的人。

１３．养你吃饭、养你看电影、养你买小东西，动不动就开始为以後练习怎样包养你的人。

１４．最害怕讨厌听到你啜泣，只要听到你哭，还是会不辞千里的飞奔到你身边的人。

１５．偷偷的为你做了很多事，却从来不和你邀功的人。

１６．已经认为自己的手臂是枕头的人。

１７．胆敢会和你抢遥控器，最後却只能陪你看欲望城市的人。

１８．老是可以让周遭好朋友感到好奇的人。

１９．他一不在，你就会心烦意乱心不在焉，而开始很想念他的人....

20.真正爱你的男生，一下子说不出真正爱你的理由，只知道自己顾不上注意别人　　

21.真正爱你的男生，其实总惹你生气，你却发觉不了他到底做错了什么。　　

22.真正爱你的男生，很少当面赞美你，可是心里肯定你是他最棒的。　　

23.真正爱你的男生，会在你忘记回复他短信时狠狠地说你一顿。　　

24.真正爱你的男生，只可能在你一个人的面前流眼泪，当你触摸到他时，也触摸到了那颗只为你跳动的心。　　

25.真正爱你的男生，会默默地记住你不经意说过的话，在某时某刻重复它们。　　

26.真正爱你的男生，不会轻易做出承诺，因为他想让自己成为你心中说话最算话的男子汉，只想给你最可靠最安全的幸福。

27.真正爱你的男生，总告诉你不要胡思乱想，因为其实他在为你们谋划着最美丽真实的未来。同时让你无忧无虑地等待他要给你的惊喜。　　

28.真正爱你的男生，可能不像你一样清楚地记得某些纪念日，他觉得爱你是每时每刻的，并不是靠这几天简单的日子。　　

29.真正爱你的男生，不会轻易对你当面说“我爱你”，因为他为你做过的每件事都已经这么说了。除非在非常时刻，为了不让你无端地误解他。　

30.真正爱你的男生，总觉得有些话只说一遍就够了，因为你已经了解他的心。说得多了，他会觉得不珍贵。　　

31.真正爱你的男生，如果他去机场接你，不会像你期望的那样捧着玫瑰大声叫“亲爱的”，只是自然地提过你的行李，然后想用眼睛抱紧你似的心疼地说，怎么瘦得像豆芽菜了？　

32.真正爱你的男生，当你发脾气时，只会不做声地听你把火发完，然后慢慢地说，你明天有课吗？早点睡吧。　　

33.真正爱你的男生，不懂当你生气挂掉电话后应该立即打来，过了若干小时后会发条短信问你消气了没有？如果你质问他为何这么久才打来，他会理直气壮的说，你生气时我的解释一定没有用，等你的火消了，我的解释才有效果。　　

34.真正爱你的男生，总是叫你小姑娘，可是每次他做什么重大的决定，却总想先听听你的建议。　

35.真正爱你的男生，不喜欢玩具小毛熊，却一直把你送他的小熊放在床头。　　

36.真正爱你的男生，当和你发生争执时，总是控制不了地先妥协，先承认“我错了”，过后发来短信以“神经病”开头，以“宝贝”结尾。事实上你也清楚，这次是你有点无理取闹。

37.真正爱你的男生，很想很想你时，也会买玫瑰送你，傻傻地等着你，却不知道自己捧的是月季。没关系，他的心里送的是玫瑰。　　

38.真正爱你的男生，嘴巴都不甜，但是他的吻能传递他所有的热情。　　

39.真正爱你的男生，当听到你对他讲很“酸”的话时，他反而会装得很正经，其实心里很甜很甜。

40.真正爱你的男生，如果不能经常见到你，他会让自己忙碌起来，为了不去想你，因为他知道一想你将会一发不可收拾。

这样对你的人真的是可遇而不可求，可是每个女生都在努力的寻找着……

2010-04-20T12:04:00.002+08:00

Urm.. today’s just okay besides the fact that I had an argument with someone yesterday, the one who brought me into the world. Sigh.. Don't wanna comment much though. Anyway, sorta blur about what to do today, most probably dip my face into the pages of never-ending work, or just lay my restless soul on the bed of flowers, tricking my control centre, my brain that is, to think of only beautiful things that I want to have in life. Lolx..
What a sentence.

I guess I’ll just sit and think about the 21st birthday that I’m gonna have in two weeks time. Still blur bout it. Sad thing.Still 2more weeks to stay 20th,cant believe I'm getting older so fast !!
Aih.. such a boring and torturing period of time. On the other hand, I still had second thoughts whether i should go to Hong Kong or not. LOL.. I'm seriously broke >.<
Sigh… hadn’t been online for what seemed ages and these are the things that I have for my column. Lolx.. Too bad I did not wish to comment about the bombastic uni stuff, or else it’ll take me aeons to complete my post. Well… short, simple, informative, and done with i am. That’s today’s post.
=)

The weather makes me want to sleep @.@

2010-04-19T23:55:00.002+08:00

Yea.. I had my honeydew ice and asam laksa finally today..

Thanks so much for my babe for cheering me up during this hardtime..

Love ya..

huggiesss :)

Arghh...

2010-04-07T18:35:00.004+08:00

Stomachache...

Stomachache...

Stomachache...

>.<

How I wish I could have this as my dinner right now..

Yea, mango ice, you owe me babe :P

2010-03-23T23:13:00.003+08:00

It rains almost everyday..
Something must have gone wrong with the clouds. The rate of condensation must have gone crazy… and because of that, yes, simply because of that I have to restrict myself from accessing to the internet.=
Oh well, Aih.. I just don’t know what’s happened to everyone nowadays. People seemed to be ‘different’ from who they used to be. Some turned upside down, some inside out, some lost their brain, some gained a little bit of brains, not to mention that some has turned a new leaf..or I'm the one who are changing? Hahahaha.. Lol… what a phenomena.
Hrm… it’s raining again…

爱情不能等你有空才珍惜

2010-03-10T21:52:00.000+08:00

我们总是以为
我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人
可是当我们回首
才发觉自己曾经多么天真

假如从来没有开始
你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？
其实
很爱很爱的感觉
是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的

茫茫人海可以找到一个心爱的人
这是多么大的福气
或许没有你想象那么好
应该也不会糟糕到哪里
所以要知福惜福好好珍惜
多说关怀话
少说责备话

如果你懂得珍惜
你会发现你获得的越来越多
如果你一昧追求
你会发现你失去的越来越快

爱情合理就好
不要委屈将就
不要相信完美的爱情
其实彼此有缺点
有一种纯朴的可爱就足够了
当我们只拥有一只鞋子的时候
才会明白失去另一只鞋子的滋味
消逝的恋情总是刻骨铭心的
珍惜或放下
都是生命中必经的过程

相爱的时候需要真诚
争执的时候需要沟通
生气的时候需要冷静
愉快的时候需要分享
指责的时候需要谅解
过日子的时候需要包容

一个人的生命里
擦肩而过的人有千千万万
有几个是知音
有几个是深爱自己的人
爱情再坚固
也无法承受忙碌的侵蚀
你忙得天荒地乱
你忙得忘记关心
你忙得身心疲惫
你忙得无所适从
但是
爱情不能等你有空才珍惜！

2010-03-08T22:25:00.002+08:00

I think my college is trying to challenge my patience,

1: NO INTERNET WiFI
We were told that UM is trying to upgrade their internet wireless system every night, but the pek chek thing is I really couldnt feel any different, and the line is even getting slower and more unstable than before ! WTH

2: WATER-SHORTAGE
Alright, I know this cant blame on my college's fault since the whole Petaling Jsys facing the same problem.But this was the first time I feel how important water is since I gotta worked so hard to get a 3kg water from lorry tank and carried it --> climb up to second floors >.<

3: NO ELECTRICITY
This is what happen now while I'm writing this post.This happen only in my floor !! Damn.. I still have a pile of tutorials awaitng for me~ Please go away mosquito, my blood is not tasty. >.<

Arhhhh....i think i gonna ciao soon ~~~

2010-03-02T22:13:00.003+08:00

Just browsed through my hardisk and found this song in it.It was one of my favourite song when I was 17.Totally agreed with the lyrics and the video is sooooooo touching *tears rolling in eyes* =) Just wanna share it with you guys..

做不成男女朋友，做个特别的朋友

2010-02-24T13:24:00.000+08:00

两个可能彼此相爱、喜欢的人，
但是，又不属于友情、爱情、亲情中的任何一种，
彼此不能成为男女朋友，只能做个特别的朋友……
也许是为了朋友之间的义气，不能归属。
也许是为了顾及家人的意见，不能归位。
也许是为了自己的前程，不能承诺。
也许是相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许是相遇太晚，彼此身边已经有了另一个人。
也许是回头太迟，对方已不再等待。
也许彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线……
不过即使没在一起，
彼此仍能找到塌实的感觉，
仍然会保持不隶属任何一种感情的关系。
但是彼此心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
因为有了彼此，心里总是被幸福塞的满满的……
即使不能彼此名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
彼此有喜欢的人，口头上会说不吃醋，
心里却会觉得胃疼……
对方遇到困难时，
会尽全力伸出援助之手，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。
对方生病了，
会缴尽脑汁找药方，
恨不得变成护士，陪伴在身旁……
每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。
一开始可能不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。
宁愿这样关心对方的心情，
总好过彼此生活在一起受伤害……
做不成男女朋友，
当个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？
你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢
很多的感情，
都败在了现实的面前……
友情可以演变成为爱情，
爱情最终进化成为亲情，
彼此就将友情直接进步到亲情……
人生不过百年……
能牵手的时候，请别只是肩并肩，
能拥抱的时候，请别只是手牵手，
能在一起的时候，请别轻易分开，
能成为红颜知己，请别刻意离开！
珍惜彼此之间塌实的感觉

2010-02-09T21:53:00.002+08:00

转贴：

一。和她发短信时，回复一定要快，让她觉得你放下手上的事情立刻回复她，字数一定要比她的多，这样她会觉得你很在乎她。

二。每天睡觉之前一定要给她一条道“晚安”的短信，不管你有多晚，因为她可能一直在等你，只是她嘴上说不管。即便是她已经昏昏睡去，第二天一醒来也会立刻去查收信息。

三。看到她的未接电话要立刻打过去，任何时候不要让她找不到你，因为这样她会一直很不安心。

四。你问她想不想你时，如果她说不想，你不要生气，因为她的不想就是想。

五。千万要记得女生都是害羞的，不要什么都让她主动。也不要在她表现心疼、吃醋、关心你的时候不停地问，只要偷偷地笑心里甜就够了，也许她不想让你知道她无时无刻不在想对你好。

六。经常去她的空间逛逛，即使什么也不留下，但是她看到你来过的痕迹也会很开心，也许有些心情就是为你而写。顺便看看她的心情日志什么的，还有她好友的留言，多知道点她的小秘密挺好，准备惊喜也容易点。

七。牵了手就不要轻易说分手，吵架的时候也不要说。如果她赌气跑开，只要一个用力的拥抱就能让她安静，就能让她感觉到你的爱。希望你能懂她离开时想要被挽留，如果说出口那只是乞求来的温柔。

八。开始一段新的恋情的前提是放下前面的所有恋情，你可以把她们给你的信物和美好记忆保留着，但是请把这些用一个匣子藏在她永远不会发现的地方，因为那些她不知道的事对于她是致命的伤害。记住女生都是敏感的动物。

九。如果一时冲动分了手，请给彼此冷却的时间，想清楚她就是你想要的人就勇敢地告诉她，不管用什么手段，死皮赖脸也好让她回到你身边就好。如果真的爱她就不要放开她，不要让她伤心，不要让她流泪，你明明知道她有多傻，她会傻傻等你的，你知道女生的青春有多么宝贵么！如果你还心疼她绝不要在分手不到一个月就移情别恋，这样等于在她伤口上撒盐。请你交换角色想一想，如果你女朋友和你分手第二天就在别的男人怀里开心地笑，你的心会有多痛？

如果你有一个傻丫头，请你好好珍惜她好好爱她好吗？也许你不知道你的一句关心，你的一个微笑，你的一个吻，一个拥抱，一个摸头发的动作都是她的幸福，其实她要的只是这么简单。她不奢求太多的惊喜，太多的浪漫，有你就是她所有的幸福。不要轻易放开她，因为她是傻丫头，她会在别人面前装的很强，对每个人微笑，然后半夜一个人躲在楼梯拐角处偷偷哭啼，她会不停地听着和你有关的歌，默默关注着你，默默的生病，默默的流泪，她会开始变的沉默，变得开始唱悲伤的歌，弹悲伤的曲子。

如果你真的有一个傻丫头请记得你说的话好吗？请你让她幸福，给她幸福，要自信的对她说：“我会让你变成全世界最幸福的人，我要让所有的人都羡慕你有一个好老公。”

其实我要的就这么简单...

2010-02-07T17:52:00.005+08:00

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah ~~
Roma-roma-ma~~
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la ~~ =p
Just here to make a short update,I'm finally free to get a chance to hanging around in my graciousparadise after a long busy week. >.<
Been extremely busy for this 2weeks and my exam is just around the corner, but I'm still not in the mood yet.
My feet is burning, burning !!
Gosh..i seriously gonna die this time..help me >.<
hehe..

Justin Bieber - Baby

Ohh wooaah
You know you love me,I know you care
You shout whenever, And I'll be there
You want my love, You want my heart
And we will never ever ever be apart

Are we an item? Girl quit playing
Were just friends, Or are we saying
So there's another one, Looks right in my eyes

My first love broke my heart for the first time,
And I was like
Baby, baby, baby nooo
My baby, baby, baby noo
My baby, baby, baby nooo
I thought you'd always be mine mine

Baby, baby, baby nooo
My baby, baby, baby noo
My baby, baby, baby nooo
I thought you'd always be mine, oh oh

For you, I would have done whatever
Another chance and we, We get together
And wanna play it cool, About loosin' you
I'll buy you anything, I'll buy you any ring
Cause I'm uneasy, So come and fix me
Come and shake me til' you wake me from this bad dream

Im going down, down, down
*everybody!*

Baby, baby, baby nooo
My baby, baby, baby noo
My baby, baby, baby nooo
I thought you'd always be mine

Baby, baby, baby nooo
My baby, baby, baby noo
My baby, baby, baby nooo
I thought you'd always be mine

You can give me all your love,
But sometimes it wont be love
Everybody told me this day would come,
Now I'm all gone
You can give all your love,
But sometimes it wont be love
Everybody told me this day would come

And I was like
Baby, baby, baby nooo
My baby, baby, baby noo
My baby, baby, baby oooh
I thought you'd always be mine

YeahYeah (5x)
Now Im all yours, yours, yours, ooh
Im yours, ooohh

*Just cant stop singing this song lately =)

2010-01-18T16:32:00.000+08:00

난 힘이 들때면 Lucky in my life
그대가 꿈처럼 다가오네요
슬퍼 질때면 난 Lucky in my dream
그대 따스하게 날 꼭 감싸주네요
언제나 이렇게 웃어요 난
세상이 힘들게 해도
난 절대 눈물은 보이고 싶진 않죠
내 맘을 모르는 그대라도
멀리서라도 그대의 그 미소를
간직할 수 있어 다행이죠
울고 싶을땐 Lucky in my love
상상속 그대가 멋져보여요
울적해지면 난 Lucky in my world
그대 꿈결처럼 날 꼭 안아주죠
언제나 이렇게 웃어요 난
세상이 힘들게 해도
난 절대 눈물은 보이고 싶진 않죠
내 맘을 모르는 그대라도
멀리서라도 그대의 그 미소를
간직할 수 있어 다행이죠

모든게 아름다워 난 너무 행복한걸
외로운 세상에 난 또 내 소원을 담아요
언제나 이렇게 웃어요 난
세상이 힘들게 해도
난 절대 눈물은 보이고 싶진 않죠
내 맘을 모르는 그대라도
멀리서라도 그대의 그 미소를
간직할 수 있어 다행이죠
그대 한걸음만 다가와요

2010-01-17T20:25:00.004+08:00

This is me ..
I love to draw, and I used to draw..
One of the way to release my tension..
Know that I’m not in the right mood lately..
I choose to hide away from this ugly reality and indulge myself in ‘drawing’..
Despite of knowing that I’m having a test which carry 20% of the subject soon
Cause I just couldn’t find any other better way than this..to express my deep feeling

I do enjoy this kind of feeling..
Shut off my mind and lock myself in the room..
Crying, shouting and laughing madly alone..being emo
And thinking of nothing..
I just love this kind of feeling..

Stress..

Released..

Released..

Released…

And back to reality…

Don’t worry bout me guys, I’m alright
fully recharged =)

It is not true that life is one damn thing after another; it is one damn thing over and over..

2010-01-10T18:28:00.003+08:00

I’m sick..
I feel so upset..
I don’t feel good..
I’m so exhausted..
I had nightmares for this few nights, which makes me so sleepless lately..
I don’t feel to talk recently..
I feel so heavy this moment..
I wish I could stay in house for longer time, even just for one more hour..
I wish he could be here to pamper me in this moment..
I wish I could just lay on bed and have my mind rest, but I got a pile of works awaiting for me..
I’m totally blank, have no idea to solve my tutorials at all..
I hate being alone in room..
I hate this kind of feeling..
I hate…

I just hate everything…

Sorry for being emo again =(

Filtration, Galvanisation, and Chocolatisation

2010-01-05T22:00:00.002+08:00

Yeah, my life has undergone three processes, filtration, galvanisation, and chocolatisation, in just a day. Today was quite a blessed day, besides the fact that there were some complications with my breathing.. Urm,I tried to adapt to the changes to my life through the three difficult processes, and I hope things will turn out fine. Today was the first trial run for me, and things went on okay. It feels good when we care less about our surroundings, especially about things and people who have nothing to do with us, and of course it feels great not to worry too much about peoples’ asses. =P

I felt slightly lighter today. Filtration process has helped me expel filthy animals outta my life, while the Galvanisation process required me to be mean to mean people and to shield myself from their words. Chocolatisation was the best part of the whole set of processes. It simply helps me through thick and coarse the sweet way, but a lot of people have to pay the price for me to walk this path. Lolx.. I made it sound so scary. Actually its just a minor change. But I wasn’t joking la.. thanks all my friends for being my companions during the hard times..

*feel like biting chocolate now =)

'09 Summary and '10 Preface

2009-12-30T22:10:00.003+08:00

If I were to picture 2009 as a flower, I would picture it as a flower with twelve petals. Each petal would be coloured a different colour from the rest. I may have put the summary a report too simple in my last post, but to me, 2009 has been a epic, not too long an epic.. but yes, an EPIC, which has been cleverly written by the one above us. It could be only happening to me, but the months of 2009, each of them had their own stories to tell. It’s as if they have a mind of themselves, and their stories, each, at the first dawn of every month awaited patiently to surface, just like a hatchling-to-be struggling to break through the hard shell of his egg.

January and February had been so easy on me, too easy till I find life having no meaning whatsoever.

March was sweet as sugar but too bad it didn’t last long enough for April to greet me.

May could have been a better month for me, but I could say that I was quite satisfied with it, if it was for my birthday. =P

June been really unfair for me. Each and every day hurt me down to the spine.

July was the month I learnt that life’s so different when I look at it from a different corner. It somehow drizzled once in a while leaving me wet under the skies.

August was the months of pain and agony. Everyone expected every little bit from me even when I have nothing left for myself.

This dragged on till September and October. However, the highlights during September and October weren’t how painful I felt, but it was a month when I lost my handphone and my beloved one.Rest in peace grandpa..
Some were spent on really deserving occasions, while some proved unworthy of the expenditure. I sighed the most these sixty one days. This was also the time I told the God how much I wanted things to be mended.

November was the month mixed with sweet and bitter memories, struggling dreadfully in examinations.

December, being the last month of the year had been most memorable. There were a few moments which had carved a smile on my face, and changed my perspective on certain things.

*********************************************************************************
Whether things will last till my very last semi-second on Earth or not, I don’t know, but I certainly hope so.
All in all, 2009, being heavier on one side of the scale, had been just so-so besides what I’ve described it earlier as great. As Squidward has said it once, ‘After so long, you now know that what you really want isn’t what you’re looking for, because what you want all these while is what’s inside you all along…’ . (please give squidward a round of applause…) =)
I could have said that earlier probably because my mood was still good and fresh, but the descriptions made here on this column had been expressed out of a neutral mood or fair point of view. Thanks to December, my year hasn’t been as bad as rotten cucumbers. About 2010, as everyone has a say about its arrival, I should expect that it is a year with more hope and peace of mind. More hope for those who had been hurt in the previous year, more hope for those who pray for success, and more hope for those who are in need. In fact, more hope for those in search for a peaceful mind. As what I have learnt and what people had taught me last year, perhaps this year is a year that I should be a little mature about things.

It could be a little funny to say that the reasoning power that I’ve worshipped so far hadn’t been really helpful at certain occasion, so may be I could just spare myself two more chances of unleashing it this year, and should no one understand simple logic. LOL.. there’s nothing I could do but to take action, as my friends had always said, ‘action speaks louder than words’. I won’t let myself get hurt this year, and I hope no one would be so unreasonable to hurt me. Patience had really sickened me last year. 2010 is simply a revenge year for me. Hahaha.. Let’s see how 2010 goes..
My diary (or perhaps, my old self) had taught me a new thing in life… I quote,
"Let yesterday tell you how blessed tomorrow will be, and listen to tomorrow when he tells you how blessed your yesterdays were…"
If you think the meaning is something like this, "Your yesterdays were blessed and good, and your tomorrow will be blessed and good too..", you’re making me laugh, >.< so you better think again because that’s not the meaning..

Anyway.. Happy New Year to everyone…

Don’t frown.. I don’t bite, I just swallow. =P

-------> 2010

2009-12-28T22:37:00.002+08:00

Whoah.. its coming to the end of the year again. Christmas had been fun, real fun and good for me, in fact it was one of the very best Christmas I’ve ever had in my life. Frankly speaking, the best present one will ever receive is a cheesecake, and until this very moment, I am still stunned at the wonders he can do. True, I shouldn’t even doubt that he could do that, but it came too suddenly and I guess I was shocked. Really shocked, but happy. More happy than anything that could happened to me. It was the best gift I ever received for Christmas so far. Thanks for being there to make up my day and give me warmth on this white snowy season. Thanks a lot .. for so much love and care.

The year-end summary… Year 2009 has been so unpredictable in so many aspects. Yea, a month there was when I thought everything was under my feet, and a week after that I found that those things were not as what I expect them to be. Some had gone out of control and some had even gone on top of my head. Then there was some arguments here and there, and problems with people being selfish, but I found out that in the end, things weren’t what thought to be. In fact I was wrong bout certain things at times. Anyway, this year had been nice and memorable to me. I just hope that certain things would last and that the coming year, 2010 would be of a better year for myself and the people I love, I adore of. All in all, I’m satisfied with the three hundred and sixty five sunsets I have seen and thanks guys, my heart is still smiling because of you guys… =)

Dear SS

2009-12-28T21:57:00.004+08:00

SS is always there for me it seems.
Sometimes I may hate said individual but about 5 times as much I feel SS is the only one I can not only be honestly myself with, but the only one that is there for me. I would like to thank the unnamed for everything did for me, thanks for the cheesecakes, thanks for being there to be my listener all the time, thanks for the genting trip, it really surprised me alot, thanks for giving me a wonderful Christmas.I really appreciate it.
I would like SS to know that I will forever more be in his debt. It is one of the few things I am thankful for.

2009-11-25T21:16:00.002+08:00

Lovely buds of yellow and blue,

Fill the lands with colours and clue,

As the Southern Winds of Warmth slice through,

You know it’s true,

That i miss you too.

2009-11-24T21:56:00.001+08:00

I'm back...

I'm back..

I'm back...

hehe...stay tuned with more updates about my bangkok trip yea

^_________________^

2009-11-19T22:40:00.001+08:00

yynsun..

is

boarding....

to

thailand

tomorrow...

sawasdeekap~~ =)

Holiday mode: ON

As Though Life Itself Isn’t Tough Enough..

2009-10-26T13:52:00.002+08:00

Sigh… It’s again a sad thing to start off a post with a sigh. But heck, what to do? When life’s really burning at your feet, no matter how hard you try not to think about it or try to avoid it, you still feel it searing every corners and sides of your toes. I’ve sighed till there’s no other sighs superior than mine. Can you imagine that? Sometimes I don’t understand why I sigh so much but I definitely did not choose to sigh. >.< Maybe it’s inherent or inborn.

I really hate to post sad columns, but by chance that whenever I have the opportunity to blog, I’m filled with frustrations. That’s why my ‘graciousparadise’ is filled with sad posts.Not gracious at all. Sigh.. Only when someone has lost so many things, people start to pay attention to that person. That’s what I saw lately. Everyone had their problems. I had mine too. The thing is that, I don’t know how to phrase mine. It doesn’t look complex, but in actual fact things are all really messy. And they are all really disappointing. Certain people just can’t seem to understand certain things sometimes. And certain people tend to forget about their grassroots. There are some who do not even bother to see to the things people ask of them. A handful of them like to pinch. The rest point their noses high as though they want to collect rainwater in their nostrils.

When I turned left today, I saw a guy who takes things real light as long as it doesn’t hurt him. When I turned right, I met a girl who thinks she has everything when she does what the guy she likes, likes to do. Above me, I saw a group of young boys trying to please themselves by telling each other how much people around them had cared for them, and under my nose I saw a bunch of filthy animals thinking that they’re greater than any creature ever existed, but they had forgotten that they’re even cheaper than the drain moss that I collected for my biology project before. It’s so lame when people start to realise things when it’s too late.

What can I do?

Why on Earth, do not people learn and deliver when time hasn’t become the limiting factor? Why gotta wait till after words are said and actions are done only will people start to do what they’re supposed to do when it wasn’t too late but learn that they regret, from that very point of time, when it’s too late? Things aren’t that complicated unless we think they are. Humans I think, which I thought I was wrong earlier, really are selfish, as time had failed to prove me wrong until today. It saddens me to discover how ignorant certain people are and how unwilling people are to change and so. But it wonders me how certain filthy creatures behave nowadays. Pardon me if I hurt anyone in this way. If anyone noticed, I have not mentioned anyone in this column, but everyone is welcomed to do a role call as you go the the list.

Life’s not that easy, especially when God make it difficult for us. .

2009-08-21T09:40:00.001+08:00

Today’s post, unfortunately will be a boring one, in contrast to what I had before. ‘Sigh…’ is the only thing I can do. It’s super boring, and tiring when you have loads of work to do, what more if you delay some of them till they stack up just like piles of haystack in farms. Yea, that’s me. I haven’t been really able breathe, have my own personal space, do things I like to do, talk to people I want to talk to, have a good night sleep, enjoy a scoop or two of ice cream, treat my tongue to a slice of chocolate-mint, shopping, cycling and movies. These were the things I usually do when I still had the time, and true to say that the word here is ‘were’. Haih..

And now the worst thing is that I have to face people I don’t wanna see everyday. It sucks. My gudness. I have changed a lot. From a jovial and crazy kinda gal, who knows her limits as in when to stop, I had transformed into a killing machine who have nothing in my mind but rage and frustration. Thanks to the environment of course. I had given up on doing homework. Really. That’s another change. Used to love them. I used vulgar words on last week with my parents at home. >.< I felt so different. It was the second time in my life that I was so vulgar. Of course there’s still some sense of humanity in me-

I FELT GUILTY.

Sigh. .Fate was never on my side ( I used to believe in lucks, but now NO). I had encountered so many disasters. I felt so devastated. Life wasn’t being fair to me. I avoided many peoples, friends and family. I missed people who had already passed away. I’m getting too greedy, I want everything good to be mine. I started day-dreaming. I do not give in anymore. Sympathy is not my game anymore. It’s history. Sigh.
I wish I could still gather courage in me to penetrate this emotional and spiritual barrier. Someone please lend me a hand .. arhhhh >.<

101's back

2009-08-21T00:26:00.004+08:00

Anyone still remember my 101 list?! =)
Let's check my achievement...here we go

+ FAMILY & RELATIONSHIPS
01. Visit my grandparents once a week and consistently- Goal completed
02. Take my younger sister to shopping with my own car.
03. Visit my cousin's grave and bring him flowers.
04. Make a new friend. ++ Goal completed ( Friends, I shall say)
05. Make a quality friend. Goal completed
06. Find a wife my older brother. =)
07. Spend a week with my mom. ++ goal completed
08. Get engaged (in the future).
09. Plan a wedding (in the future).
10. 'Kacau' my friends at the place where they worked. =P ++ goal completed
11. Plan a special 'just because' outing with him.
12. Get in contact with my best friend from primary & high school.
13. Spend a day with my cousins.++ Goal completed
14. Play W.O.W with friends.++ Goal completed
15. Go on a date a week for 6 months with my future 'him'.
16. Visit Sarah in whatever place she is in at the time.

+ CREATIVE & LEARN
17. Redesign my website. ++ goal completed
18. Create something on canvas.++ goal completed
19. Design new birthday cards. ++ goal completed
20. Update my portfolio. ++ goal completed
21. Take violin lessons.
22. Learn flash.++ goal completed
23. Take a pottery class.
24. Sign up for a dancing class. ++ goal completed
26. Visit the library, check out some good books.++ goal completed
27. Blog on design-friends for a month straight.
28. Take a language class. ++ goal completed (Going to learn France next, hope so)
29. Take a photo a day for 6 months and make a coffee table book.+ completed the 1st part

+ ENTERTAINMENT & TRAVEL
30. Visit Israel.
31. Live in another city. ++ goal completed
32. Go to Seattle.
33. Visit a wonder of the world.
34. Ride a train to an entirely new city or state.
35. Go apple picking.
36. Take a weekend trip to a different city.++ goal completed
37. Go tree house camping.

+ ORGANIZE
38. Clear out my inbox and keep emails organized.++ goal completed
39. Clean out my garage.++ goal completed
40. Clean up my room. ++ goal completed
41. Redesign my room. ++ goal completed
42. Organize my computer files, transfer files from old computer.++ goal completed
43. Buy a hard drive. ++ goal completed
44. Get around to backing up my computer because time machine is awesome and I have it. ++ goal completd
45. Organize my bookmarks. and share the good ones! ++ goal completed

+ FOR MYSELF
46. Start a workout, get healthy or stay in shape.
47. Not eat out for 2 months straight. (Trying hard to do so)
48. Make my bed for a month. ++ goal completed (In hostel)
49. Encourage someone to make a list! ++ goal completed
50. Plant a time capsule.
51. Keep a prayer journal.
52. Start a list with him.
53. Try a new haircut that I have never had.
54. Go to a movie by myself.
55. Enter myself into a competition.++ goal completed (in MHS/MKB)
56. Write down 5 good things a day for a month straight. (or longer)
57. Put aside rm50 a month for 6 months and then go on a shopping spree.
58. Write a "if anything ever happens to me" letter.

+ FOR OTHERS
59. Volunteer at orphanage with the kids.
60. Surprise someone.++ goal completed * simple task*
61. Write 10 handwritten letters.
62. Send some fun mail to 5 friends.++ goal completed
63. Invest my time in someone, be intentional.
64. Find a organization or missionary to support consistently.
65. Put together 5 Christmas shoeboxes.
66. Donate 5 bags of clothing.
67. Donate rm500.
68. Donate 101 items.
69. Treat a friend out to tea and scones.++ goal completed
70. Pray for someone for a month straight.++ goal completed

+ FUN
71. Make gourmet cupcakes.++ goal completed
72. Build a snowman.(Impossible in my place, I know)
73. Get a nice flat screen tv. ++ goal completed
74. Go on a picnic with my friends
75. Talk a walk in the rain.
76. Enter casino. (Still haven’t reach the age)
77. Snag a treasury. ++ goal completed
78. Host a swap party with friends.
79. Host a giveaway at my blog.
80. Attend a gameshow, talkshow, or something tv-related.++ goal completed
81. Blog daily for 30 consecutive days.
82. Win something, anything! I never win things. hehe.
83. Go to the beach and relax, build a sandcastle. ++ goal completed
84. Bake lace cookies and chocolate chipless cookies. ++ goal completed
85. Send a message in a bottle.
86. Host a crepe / holiday party with my friends.
87. Watch Star Wars...maybe. (I've never seen it, but it's funny to see people's reactions when I tell them)

+ STUDIES & MONEY
88. Add 10 new items to my jewelry box.
89. Start up my new life of studies.++ goal completed
90. Do a craft show.
91. Start a job, design-related.
92. Apply at university I longed for.++ goal completed
93. Get my finances in order.++ goal completed
94. Invest my money in something and start saving! ++ goal completed
95. See if I can live off my own income through my part time job.
96. Put away rm200 a month for 6 months straight.
97. Throw away my chemistry and biology books ++ goal completed
98. Start and stick to a budget.++ goal completed
99. Cut coupons and try to save some $ for 3 months.
100. Do not buy anything for myself for one whole month.(Extremely hard man)
101. At the end of the 1001 days, put aside rm25 in savings for each task completed.

2009-06-27T19:51:00.002+08:00

明天就要开始新的生活了，
一个人在外头过生活。。
心里有种难言的感觉。。
虽然我是个不撒言辞的人，
但是在这里还是想老套地说几句。。（哈哈。。真的很老套）

想说声，

谢谢

谢谢一些曾经帮助过我的人，
陪我走过许多风风雨雨的家人，
对我不离不弃的朋友，
一起陪我哭陪我笑的死党，
真的很感激你们。。
虽然今天过后我们都各奔东西了，
但仍然希望你们一切顺利要记得常联络。。

还有一些一直以来支持我的朋友，
SPM要考好来哦！加油！
我知道你们应该都有看我的Blog 吧。。=）

好了就这样吧。。
说得好像在交待身后事似的。。 =P
下个星期回来再和大家update下我的近况吧。。

Wish me GOOD LUCK..

加油 !!

2009-06-18T21:29:00.005+08:00

不明白，
真的不明白上天为何总是不眷恋好人。。
他那坚韧不拔地挨了一年多的苦，
得病时刚好是大学快要毕业的时候，
当时看着他就算再辛苦也坚持到学校考试，
还考得了好成绩。。当时真的很为他高兴。。
每次看着那像钢笔一样粗的针插在手上
就连旁人都心疼的忍不住流泪，
他总是忍着泪水笑着地对我们说，
等他康复以后一定要和我们到处去旅游一起去喝荔枝冰

结果就终于等到了从生的机会，
为何就在所有人最期盼的那一刻却带来了如此残酷的消息
以往无论多少的苦头他都坚强地熬过了
为何上天还是选择继续这样地对待他。。。
我不明白。。

如今都已成了事实那我们都只好接受
希望你不要放弃因为无论你做的任何决定，
我们永远都会支持。。只要你不放弃。。
希望上天会保佑你明天手术成功,
也保佑我能申请到我所要的大学..
记得我们都会在这里等你回来！

明天, 我们一起为未来加油吧！！

Technical error? Damn..

2009-05-31T22:08:00.006+08:00

Read this news...

GEORGE TOWN: A technical blunder on Universiti Sains Malaysia’s (USM) official website has created confusion among 4,574 students about their eligibility to enter the university.
And USM deputy vice-chancellor (Academic and International Affairs) Prof Ahmad Shukri Mustapa Kamal apologised unreservedly for it. The students, who had received offer letters via soft copies on the website, were left disappointed when they were told of a technical mistake by USM.
The university had wrongfully uploaded all the names, together with 3,599 successful applicants, on the website.Prof Ahmad Shukri said that about 8,000 students had pre-qualified for the university from a total of 22,000 students who had applied to enter USM.

“They met the minimum criteria to enter the university in accordance to the programme of USM.

“However, after the final three-day selection from May 26-28, we have decided to take in only 3,599 of them.

“The remaining names will be submitted to the University Admission Unit (UPU) main pool for selection into other public universities,” he said during a press conference Sunday.

Ahmad Shukri said USM only realised their mistake at about 3pm on Saturday, some 24 hours after the names of the 8,000 odd students were put up at the website on Friday.

“We took two hours to rectify the problem. By 5pm on Saturday, only the actual successful applicants were notified with the issuance of offer letters and letter of acceptance.

“We regret the mistake that caused inconvenience to the anxious parents and students.

“I apologise for the mistake and USM will do whatever we can to solve the matter,” he said.

He said USM had since notified all the successful applicants via SMSes and phone calls, adding that an official letter would also be sent out.

He said this was the first time that USM was selecting students directly after it was granted Apex status recently.

He assured that the names of students, who were not accepted by USM, would reach UPU.

“We have a short time in notifying the successful candidates. We have no choice but to inform them via SMSes, website and phone calls,” he said.
On the officer who committed the mistake, Ahmad Shukri said he wanted to resolve the matter before carrying out a post mortem and deal with the culprit.
In Petaling Jaya, Higher Education department director-general Datuk Prof Radin Umar Radin Sohadi Students said that those rejected by USM will be placed UPU’s main pool for selection into other public universities.

He said USM had been given autonomy to organise its own intake under its Apex status.

“Whoever is qualified, is offered a place and accepts the offer will go to USM. These students will also be excluded from the main pool.

“However, if they are rejected by USM - then they will be put into the main pool automatically. This process of selection will be done soon and will be announced in the third week of June,” he said when contacted on Sunday.

Meanwhile, a father of a 20-year-old girl came to The Star office on Sunday to complain about the anxiety caused by confusion in USM.
His daughter who refused to be named, checked the university’s website on Friday evening and found her name among the list of successful applicants for the dentistry course.

“She clicked her acceptance for the course and an acknowledgement notice appeared on the website,” said Lim, who showed the acceptance letter to the Star.

“We were so happy but only for a day,” said Lim, 49, when met yesterday.

On Saturday, the Tunku Abdul Rahman college student began to hear news about the list of succesful applicants being changed.

“True enough, we checked on Saturday at around 11pm and her name was no longer on the list.

“And today morning, a SMS was sent to her stating that she was not a successful applicant and it was a technical error.

“USM is an Apex university and it is supposedly an elite university.

“But all they can say about the confusion is that is a ‘technical error’?,” he said.

I must highlight the word TECHNICAL ERROR here.. I was so so so mad while reading this news. Supposed that is not my business because I didn't send my application to USM, but since it takes away my friend's hope, and thousands people's hope, then that's my biggest concern now. Let people happy for just a few moments then break their hope.....
Arghhh, my mind really blank now. What USM gonna be top university in M'sia in the future, all tipu org punya.

如果道歉有用的话，那世界上警察要来干嘛。。。

*Just ignore the grammar and vocabulary mistakes, i hv no mood to mind about it.

I Will Be

2009-05-25T22:10:00.005+08:00

Love these songs lately.. =)

I Will Be - Leona Lewis
There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go
I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me
And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
Cause without you I cant sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah
And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need
And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

2009-05-15T23:37:00.004+08:00

我一直以为自己可以很大方。。
可以很大方地走向前去和他打声招呼，
还可以像以前一样保持好朋友关系，
直到前天才发觉，原来自己并没有那个勇气。。
我办不到。。
我，选择了逃避
回避了你的微笑，
因为你影响了我一整天的心情，
我不知道当天你是否知道
知道我和朋友约好在那
还是那只是巧合,
我一直在安慰自己,
因为朋友也告诉我 ,
你大概不会知道 ,
当天我们都迟到了。。
可是总是开车的你应该也不会捧着一大堆东西出现在那。。
看到你，我真的慌了
以为一辈子都不会再见到你了
却又突然遇见你。。
脑袋突然闪过当时你狠下心的样子
当时真的很狠你，
如今我只能说，我没有遗憾
虽然你不会看到这个post 就算看了也不会明白
可是我还是想大声地对你说
下次见到你的话。。
我一定会向前自信地跟你说，

“ How' re you, friend? ”

祝福你。。

2009-05-06T18:18:00.002+08:00

Sorry that I'm really lazy to post lately.
Will be update asap..

Breaking The Barrier

2009-04-20T16:20:00.004+08:00

Many things in life come in riddles. Just like the recent things that have surfaced in my life, many incidents were beyond control and imagination, things that do not bear answers, but bring about questions, endless questions which God’s creatures couldn’t have possibly answer even quarter in their lives on Earth. I tried to argue a few facts which was encoded in the Laws of Nature, but I guess I had to give in to its supremity. I dare not defy his Almighty, for he determines what best for his creations. And so I cease breaking the barrier of truth, letting bits of destiny fill the minutes of my life, allowing people of greater wisdom to teach me and guide me through and across the river of charisma. Apart from what is being said and done, days of the present time had been fair and kind to me, despite the fact that they have hit some disappoinment into my heart. Here again, without much left to say, I declare that I am delighted with the fate I am in. The word here is

SATISFACTION....

* I don't know what happen to my blogspot, I cant change the font size and color. =( *

2009-03-14T21:28:00.002+08:00

發明愚人節的人，應該拿到諾貝爾和平獎吧！

只不過，現在的人越來越不好騙了，因為看了太多的新聞。

「這...，不會是真的吧？」

有時候我覺得真正的新聞還比較讓我驚訝。

21世紀的人們，都已經百煉成鋼了。

但心不要也變成鋼鐵般那樣就好了，

那，就以這個外冷內熱的鋼鐵人姿態前進吧！

2009-02-28T16:48:00.004+08:00

Mixed emotions though, regarding my future. About what I was gonna do, where I’m heading to, then, which make me so sleepless these few days. Sigh. Time calls for my reply la..Days are getting older, and I really have to make up my beautiful mind about the things that outline my future. Results will be outing soon, after two weeks from now. Sei. =S

Had a semi-serious ( semi-conscious perhaps) discussion with dad recently, and I had suggested not to waste so much money to be affiliated with top private colleges and universities, if I could make it into local U. He agreed without saying much of words though. Lolx.. As this was only a preliminary stage of studies, I guess I should save more for a better master studies. Mummy protested and thought I should either go to HELP Inst. @ Uni. of Nottingham or follow my er jie’s path -- go Singapore..instead of waiting for local university entry on July.

This is really the hard part in my life..Gish. Really hate in making decision. I will not be able to come back to this crossroad anymore, so I really have to decide properly, carefully, and fastidiously.

Hrm.. I hope I could just flip a coin and let Him decide for me.. >.<

Outing on Valentines Day

2009-02-14T23:28:00.029+08:00

- Had lots fun today, went out with form six friends
- Shopped for Valentine's present for them and bought a small present for myself as well
- Received call from Shirley, from New York and sms from Paris again
- Watched Pink Panther at Times Square
- Had lunch at Papa Johns, exchanged our presents
- Got free ice cream from Walls
- Went Sg.Wang to look for Nazrin and Michelle
(But too bad both of them were off on that day)
- Met KY, miss the choco she gaves me last year XD
- Played bowling with them
- Went shopping with Ena again and continue our Valentines plan. Bought lotsa things =)
- Had dinner with family at Quan's Ice cream House
- Went shopping again at Leisure Mall

Quite well entertained and full for the day..it's just nice and warm.

Perasan before outing =)

Pizza at Papa Johns. Get myself a set of Chicken Royale Spaghetti. =)

Jett Yee and Sayli (That waiter keep standing and stare at us..lol )

Look at Piriyah's gorgeous look

From the left: Me, Siew Hwei, Say Li, Piriyah and Jett Yee

Ena and I

Haha..sicko

2009-02-12T21:55:00.004+08:00

OMG, since that day I’ve been laughing like mad, almost laughing my lungs outta my thorax. Hahahaha. Oh dear, this have to pause, but not stop. Life couldn’t be better for me without my ground shaking laughter.Lol.. I just cant stop laughing, and its like so hehehe…addictive! Good things just come in my way and I don’t know how to pause this unearthly phenomena. I couldn’t have imagined it coming tho, but it’s really here .Haha… Speechless but the laughters and smiles all over my body said it all.

That’s my motto now. ‘LOLx’. Yea, It wasn’t because I struck lottery or something, but it was indeed something which so beautifully happened in my life. Don’t know what else to say, by just laughing will do I guess. Another new thing said by someone the other day which hit hard into my head..ouch! No harm listening tho..

Hahahaha. Today’s just like another day of laughter for me. Lol. Yea, day of all days man, just that I’m a little unwell. In fact my doctor said I should laugh more cause laughter is the best medicine. (for my eye illness? I don’t think so).I wonder whether he was crapping anot.Sure, he was. Anyway, being a little sick dint stop me from completing my 101.( ‘Visit’ my friends again at the place they worked). Yea, and so many things to do today. My goodness, had my afternoon nap, dreaming of nice and wonderful things, chatting with friends in MSN, waiting a call from New York ( But she doesn’t call… Shirley!! ), and I received a really funny sms from Paris,from wilson.
Feel tired tho.Whoah… it’s time to sleep.zzz.
Wuahaaahaaa~~~~

2009-02-02T14:24:00.002+08:00

(Pic by Mayday-Ashin)

-Gong Xi Fa Cai-

Happy CNY Everyone

2009-01-23T20:08:00.005+08:00

Quench my thirst!!! Satisfy my hunger!!! Spa for my tongue??? Hrm..It was a lil fun at home today, cause I did nothing other than feeding my stomach (again) , washing some juices down my throat, and tantalising my lovely tongue with deserts and mash mallows from Him. Sigh..haha. A way to enjoy life before getting back to the hectic and exhausting student lifestyle, but it seemed so monotonous la. =P

Hehehe.. keep eating and eating non-stop this few weeks but I don’t seem to put on weight, even lost 2kgs.Sei. Actually it ain’t so bad after all, cause I don’t have to restrain myself from delicious and blessed sumptuous meals. Hrm.. I don’t know but does that mean I’m blessed? Sure I’m counting my blessings but how do I count this? Ha. Here I would also like to express my gratefulness for having my memory and language proficiency back. **sniff sniff** by still speaking BM and BI fluently with friends (Piriyah you know it) , knowing what’s medicine that doctor’s giving (from biology facts I mean).

I think the Lord sort of striped me off my privilege for a few days, so hard to sleep on it these few days that I could not reason things out. Lucky me to have my privilege back. Oh my good old friends, after a string of prayers. Yeah, cant afford to lose them again.. Hahaha..

Btw, Chinese New Year is coming la. Packing to balik kampong now. Can’t wait to see my grandparents, and angpao’s. $$$$ Yes, I'm kinda money-minded.Haha. =)
Dong Dong Dong Qiang, Dong Dong Dong Qiang~~ (Sot sot jor) .

Gong Xi Fa Cai yea everyone !!

p/s: I met oppa again today. *Happy*

101 in 1001

2009-01-18T00:24:00.004+08:00

I have finished my 101 list finally..

+ FAMILY & RELATIONSHIPS
01. Visit my grandparents once a week and consistently.
02. Take my younger sister to shopping with my own car.
03. Visit my cousin's grave and bring him flowers.
04. Make a new friend. ++ goal completed
05. Make a quality friend.
06. Find a wife my older brother. =)
07. Spend a week with my mom. ++ goal completed
08. Get engaged (in the future).
09. Plan a wedding (in the future).
10. 'Kacau' my friends at the place where they worked. =P ++ goal completed
11. Plan a special 'just because' outing with him.
12. Get in contact with my best friend from primary & high school.
13. Spend a day with my cousins.
14. Play W.O.W with friends.
15. Go on a date a week for 6 months with him.
16. Visit Sarah in whatever place she is in at the time.

+ CREATIVE & LEARN
17. Redesign my website. ++ goal completed
18. Create something on canvas.
19. Design new birthday cards.
20. Update my portfolio. ++ goal completed
21. Take violin lessons.
22. Learn flash.
23. Take a pottery class.
24. Sign up for a dancing class.
26. Visit the library, check out some good books.
27. Blog on design-friends for a month straight.
28. Take a language class. ++ goal completed (Going to learn France next, hope so)
29. Take a photo a day for 6 months and make a coffee table book.

+ ENTERTAINMENT & TRAVEL
30. Visit Israel.
31. Live in another city. ++ goal completed
32. Go to Seattle.
33. Visit a wonder of the world.
34. Ride a train to an entirely new city or state.
35. Go apple picking.
36. Take a weekend trip to a different city.
37. Go tree house camping.

+ ORGANIZE
38. Clear out my inbox and keep emails organized.
39. Clean out my garage.
40. Clean up my room. ++ goal completed
41. Redesign my room. ++ goal completed
42. Organize my computer files, transfer files from old computer.
43. Buy a hard drive. (and do the next goal below)
44. Get around to backing up my computer because time machine is awesome and I have it.
45. Organize my bookmarks. and share the good ones!

+ FOR MYSELF
46. Start a workout, get healthy or stay in shape.
47. Not eat out for 2 months straight. (Trying hard to do so)
48. Make my bed for a month. (Lazy...)
49. Encourage someone to make a list!
50. Plant a time capsule.
51. Keep a prayer journal.
52. Start a list with him.
53. Try a new haircut that I have never had.
54. Go to a movie by myself.
55. Enter myself into a competition.
56. Write down 5 good things a day for a month straight. (or longer)
57. Put aside rm50 a month for 6 months and then go on a shopping spree.
58. Write a "if anything ever happens to me" letter.

+ FOR OTHERS
59. Volunteer at orphanage with the kids.
60. Surprise someone. (with a visit, flowers, something nice)
61. Write 10 handwritten letters.
62. Send some fun mail to 5 friends.
63. Invest my time in someone, be intentional.
64. Find a organization or missionary to support consistently.
65. Put together 5 Christmas shoeboxes.
66. Donate 5 bags of clothing.
67. Donate $500.
68. Donate 101 items.
69. Treat a friend out to tea and scones. (i love tea!)
70. Pray for someone for a month straight. repeat.

+ FUN
71. Make gourmet cupcakes.
72. Build a snowman.(Impossible in my place, I know)
73. Get a nice flat screen tv. ++ goal completed
74. Go on a picnic with my friends and him.
75. Talk a walk in the rain.
76. Enter casino. (Still havent reach the age)
77. Snag a treasury. ++ goal completed
78. Host a swap party with friends.
79. Host a giveaway at my blog.
80. Attend a gameshow, talkshow, or something tv-related.
81. Blog daily for 30 consecutive days.
82. Win something, anything! I never win things. hehe.
83. Go to the beach and relax, build a sandcastle. ++ goal completed
84. Bake lace cookies and chocolate chipless cookies. ++ goal completed
85. Send a message in a bottle.
86. Host a crepe / holiday party with my friends.
87. Watch Star Wars...maybe. (I've never seen it, but it's funny to see people's reactions when I tell them)

+ STUDIES & MONEY
88. Add 10 new items to my jewelry box.
89. Start up my new life of studies.
90. Do a craft show.
91. Start a job, design-related.
92. Apply at university I longed for.
93. Get my finances in order.
94. Invest my money in something and start saving!
95. See if I can live off my own income through my part time job.
96. Put away rm200 a month for 6 months straight.
97. Throw away my chemistry and biology books ++ goal completed
98. Start and stick to a budget.
99. Cut coupons and try to save some $ for 3 months.
100. Do not buy anything for myself for one whole month.(Extremely hard man)
101. At the end of the 1001 days, put aside rm25 in savings for each task completed.

I'm trying hard to complete this 101 events within 1001 days, hope I can work it out.

The Fives

2009-01-11T01:22:00.006+08:00

ON SOME FIVES :

•5 items away from 500 sales.
•5 peoples away from 800 favs.
•5 hours I will be waiting just to get my hair look nicer
•5 hours to sleep in a day
•5 days till we go for the next date. =)
•5 weeks till we go to universal.
•5 months till I'm 20, yikes.
•5 x 100 dollars I should start saving.
•5 sweaters I really want to buy, but probably shouldn't.
•5 goals in progress on my 101 list.(will share the story later)
•5 of my favorite chapsticks I need to buy, because I always loose them.
•5 hundred things I wish I could do right now, but there is only so much time in the day.
•5 new things I need to make a goal to learn.

Welcoming 2009, Biding farewell to 2008

2009-01-02T23:48:00.020+08:00

It’s been real fun welcoming 2009 at the countdown party. As I was saying, I had a great dinner with my family. It was a barbeque party to countdown for the coming year and sending year 2008 down the drain (Ooops..I meant memory lane, whatever =P). It was a sumptuous feast, to compliment. Well I loved it. Lol..We headed to Taman Saga Ampang, where voted for the best fireworks-viewing spot for supper and countdown after having the delicious dinner. Countdown came next and balloons filled the air at our last count. It was a big havoc .The fireworks were not bad, caught them live. The final event was some songs to bid 2008 farewell and to welcome 2009, a year I would look at from a completely different point of view. Then headed back home for some wine and vodka with daddy again.Alcoholic.Ha.Luckily didn't get drunk this time (still manage to play sms =P)

Well for 2008, actually I have typed plenty of comments for that year but since the blogspot had happily erased it, I would happily keep all the bombastic comments I have for everyone to myself. Well I’ll just mention some worth mentioning ones.

My Thank You List:

1. I want Ke Sin, Ena and Piriyah to know that I treasure the bestfriendship (I know this word doesn’t exist but who cares?) we shared and I hope it stays till we’re gone for good. Frenz eva yea..

2. My family, for all the happy moments in year 2008, glad that you guys were there.(Love papa and mama)

3. Him, for all the smiles and thanks for being there when I seeking for help =)

4. Say Li, Siew Hwei, Lynnett (correct spelling this time.Open eyes big big!! ), Shirley, Jyu Yann, Jun-Ah and Ji-Yeong (two of my korean friends), Austin , Weizhuan, Dolphius and all in the sisterhood... and Mr.Potato(Lol)

5. All FSC members and Princesses (Especially 5 Tanjungnian 2006), both of my lou kong(s), oppa(s)

6. My club members (Keep perasan and the ss-ness yea)

7. And some ever supporting friends for making year 2008 a wonderful year for me.

8. Also gracias to those who’d made 2008 a dreadful one. Ha. Especially the sick stick (My 'Dearest' Miss SS).. XD

Love you guys! Muackzzz..

Bye 2008

2008-12-31T01:49:00.003+08:00

This is the last posting for year 2008, just wanna wish you all have a wonderful & prosperous year 2009.May,
~Faith makes all things possible
~Hope makes all things work
~Love makes all things beautiful
~Stay healthy and happy always
~Dreams come true
Jia you~~

2008-12-30T23:46:00.005+08:00

Devil me..=S

The naughty girl blocked my face =P

2008-12-26T23:15:00.014+08:00

Taking pic in clinic (Perasan =.=' )

Nice clinic (Take from the place where my friend is working)

Love this picture (Coz Mic says I look pretty in this =p )

Our gang (Formal)

Our gang (Casual)

25th DECEMBER 2008,

I HEART X'MAS

With my sisters..

This year X'maz celebs was cool. Lol.So holy yet so rocking.Yea, really.Went to Sunway Pyramid and shop for X'mas present for whole day.Dinner at Yuan for steamboat buffet.After back home prepare for Boxing Day and have some wine and vodka.Yea, that's tasty.(Bit drunk).Ahhahaha.Nth much really happened today but sumhow i’ve got so much crapz to write about.Lolx. This, is really me.Love to write, express, and not forgetting…crap.Oh yeah, crapping rocks…(depends on whether u ave a listnener anot) hahaha~~ (Ciaoz)

X'mas coming..Hoho

2008-12-22T22:54:00.005+08:00

Obstacles in life, The ups and downs, Lefts and rights, It was a smooth journey today, Yet i met a bump, almost at the end of my journey, then a roundabout of words, which made me swear, ‘I will never take this path again’, Perhaps tomorrow will be a better journey, If and only if, I choose my path wisely, considering only my interests, and am i proud to say, It wasn’t my fault.

Sighs.No comments about what happened.It was indeed a fine day, trying to be a nice girl again and so..Oh well it just happened.Not all people can keep his or her ego away and apologize or even thank another person.Lol.What to do.I just hope God will bless that person and and make that person understand better.Ha.I’m getting over it now.Coz I’ve got nothing to lose. >.< Just forget about that.

*Btw, X'mas is coming around la* Whoahohoho (I'm just lil bit too excited..cant wait for that day) XD

突然好想你

2008-12-20T00:14:00.002+08:00

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终於让自已属于我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你..
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你..
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜那麽美那麽相信
那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向
各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

突然好想你..
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然听到你的消息...

2008-12-17T22:14:00.005+08:00

Sigh.Woke up so damn early this morning just to pay the hospital a visit.Whoah.. whoah.Yawned thousands of times with people looking attentively at me, as though I was the alien there.Those faces… so scary man!! Some looked at me with watery eyes (dunno what’s wrong, perhaps I’m looked too pathetic in my sleepy mood), then small kids looked at me with their innocent faces as if I’m Santa ( hush..I know X'mas is coming)then doctors were scanning my face with puzzled looks ( perhaps they thought a person of my age shouldn’t ave been there.Oh well,the fact is that I’m there.) and the old ppl looked so scary!! Oh well, they stared at me. I guess they hate teens. I dint ask to be there.First thing the doctor tell was funny,:'Girl, you're extremely underweight, even a small turnado could blow u off '. Oh man, are you trying to crack jokes wih me?! I totally have no mood for that.Overall,the whole physiotheraphy process was just okay.(It's really pain, especially the injured part).I still gotta undergo bout 10times upon the recovery.Doctor says I might get taller bout 3 to 4cm than before after recovery **Happy** But one thing that I gotta promise to him is to take more food.Muahahaa..hope can get well soon yea.

2008-12-15T21:26:00.000+08:00

What a boring day again.Woke up at around 11.30 a.m., the first thing I did was to stare at the calendar. That’s probably what I do everyday. Counting days. sighy. Ha. Not too bad tho. At least I’m doing something rather than doing nothing. I was browsing thru people’s blog n found so many interesting things that they penned. Sigh’z. Everybody’s so packed and busy with their life and so, and I seemed to be the only one who’s got nothing to write at all. My life’s kinda boring now. Nothing really interesting happened for me to report here. Yea, true, I still follow the same old monotonous routine, sleep, wake up in front of the tv, eat, browsing thru my phone, on9, sleep again, tv, eat, then sleep. That is. Hrmm. today is slightly better than yesterday. Helping my sis to finish up her 2000 pieces puzzles. Got an excuse for not holding any household (Ssshh.. dun let my mummy know yea =P) . At least something which will keep me occupied for long hour rather than to sit n eat for hours at the couch. I sincerely tot my holidays at home would be nice and enjoyable, that was a month ago tho, but it seems that I’ve made a wrong assumption.lol.Life’s so plain for me.When it was supposed to be colourful and vibrant.
Oh well. Days are still counting la after all.Won’t stop just because of me. And I believe that I’m not really counting days, in fact days are ‘counting’ me away.. ha~

2008-12-15T02:49:00.001+08:00

Never frown, even when you are sad,
because you never know who is
falling in love with your smile.

Bla Bla..

2008-12-14T22:35:00.005+08:00

I was in a very crunchy mood yesterday, well more appropriate for me to say that I’ve been slightly touchy lately. I imagined my long holidays being anything but having so many stuffs packed into my schedule. To be exact, I expected my leave to be carefree and yea, so much more free than usual, without having to worry about a single thing tho these things revolved around me every single moment and walked in and out of my life every second. Hahahaha.. It ain’t simple! *gag* Well housework is one thing, cant blame my household for having me as a maid, well its for a good cause. The reason: ‘To train you to take care of yourself in case if you don’t get married..or you gotta travel oversea for your further study (well I’ve heard enough). I’m grateful tho, how ironic can that be. whoah.. a whole lot of them.. Well I’m seriously going for a holiday after X'mas. No time for social gatherings at the moment. Time’s running real short. Well, hopefully,the third week of freedom is gonna be so much more meaningful and worth living. Looking forward to that.. X’mas’s coming btw!!! =) hoorray

2008-12-05T23:00:00.001+08:00

Hey guyz,
I'm back...finally
Sorry I haven't made a post in the longest time. I've been extremely busy and STPM is now over finally . Well,I think this year STPM is really sucks.what expected is not come out as expected.ha.anyway, just forget about it.Today’s slightly better a day to live.. at least i can sleep without alarm next to me.Took a break from paint work to clean other parts of the house. Felt a little lighter. Anyway, work has to be done whether today or tomorrow, so it actually makes no difference. Well, its okay, and most importantly, i woke up on the left side of the bed today, not to mention i had long undisturbed hours of sleep. Can’t wait for Christmas to come.. Nothing else to comment and this will be all to call it a day.but i think its kinda hard day for me as today is only the second day after finished exam.its bored to just stay at home and facing the wall.anyway, i going to hang out with shin oppa tomorrow.yeahh...

(Read: I may not post for a while again because i'll not in KL for quite a long time.
Its time to play!! XD)

Frustrated...

2008-09-12T20:50:00.004+08:00

I'm truely sorry I haven't posted here in long time. It's been almost 3 months! There's been a ton going on in my life: trial is coming...and of course STPM.Its so many things happen in skul and the ppl around me.anyway, exam is around the corner. gotta do well in it.

Please pray for me yea..

Words of Wisdom

2008-07-25T22:17:00.003+08:00

If someone does something new with their hair, and they ask you if you like it, the answer is usually
"YES! I love it!"

(you'll know if they're asking for brutal honesty- generally because they'll say "Tell me the truth, you can be totally honest")

The answer is NEVER "

Oh, that was on purpose? I just thought you were just having a bad hair day."

Updates..

2008-07-25T22:11:00.003+08:00

I got a haircut on last Saturday. Everyone seems to love it! But how do you really know? No one will ever tell you, "Man, you blew that one. I hope it grows out soon." It's short! (Read: it's totally medium length for normal people that don't always have crazy long hair like me.) I also really like it because it's very conducive to the roll-out-of-bed look. Big fan of not having to style so much. Woooooooo! I have NICE HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =P

Lost In Life..

2008-07-25T21:06:00.003+08:00

Remember Mario Bros? and how they used to go up into the clouds and you'd get a million coins up there? Well right now I feel like i'm living in a dream world. I literally want someone to pinch me and wake me up because right now my head is sleeping. This is a world where the doorman knows my name and opens the door to the taxi for me. People give me weird looks when I tell them sorry. (guess I'm one of the only people who actually appreciates it). There are no other words to describe how I feel these days. I'm just lost in a daze trying to wake up. Only problem is if people poke me, i feel it. [; )] My world is changing. Making a complete 180 in fact. What am I to do? What's gonna happen next? Life is a mystery. I guess I'll just have to live out this amazing ride.

Dear Miss 'Earthworm' and SS..

2008-07-20T21:15:00.000+08:00

It is not all the time that i want to talk about people or give comments to others, but since i'm at it, i guess the people who feel that i'm stepping on their tails should really consider what has really gone wrong about themselves; or about me perhaps, since they are always Mr. and Mrs. Right. Throwing tantrums all over on others as though everyone on Earth owes h(er)im. Well, if it's not yours, it can never be yours. Face it. Don't be a cry baby telling the whole world how much you dislike certain things or certain people. And don't hate people for the things they have and things you don't. Its just sick. Unless you're a sicko. I strongly feel so. That's too bad, but it's none of my business by the way. Stay away from my dear friend and that's my concern. C'mon..Be yourself, dumbo, be original though i heard you've never been ever since you came to Earth. Slut your way out of our lives please. Pardon me for the language but that person really deserves it.

and..

Return my band !!

Perhaps Love..

2008-07-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

I don’t remember when it happened.
I’d get dizzy just thinking about you.
Because my thoughts kept stretching, my heart was surprised.
It’s a little awkward that I keep saying to you that “it’s nothing”
and that “my heart’s just trifling”

Is this love? And if you feel the same way, is this the beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you and the more the world listens
the louder it yells it.
Why is it just now that I hear it?
That the love has been found us so we might be together.

Even if I try to explain my feelings, the only true way to understand
would be to become me and feel them.
I’m already inside of you, just how you’re inside of me.
I don’t know if we’ve gotten used to the meaning between us.

Is this love? And if you feel the same way, is this the beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you and the more the world listens
the louder it yells it.Why is it just now that I hear it?
That the love has been found us so we might be together.

Now that I think about it, there were so many moments of fluttering.
I’ll make up for all the time lost.

I’ll be with you and give you only good memories,
so in return you can’t leave me.
Even the slightest moments make me feel uneasy
Stay with me

I’m loving you until then..

走火入魔

2008-07-20T20:03:00.000+08:00

Totally addicted with this song .. =P

丁噹+五月天阿信-走火入魔

對不起剛才我是不是聽錯
還是我想太多想到了昏頭
天氣不錯開了窗吹走臉紅

進一步退一步都害怕打破
更不想在原地永遠作朋友
給你線索也給我勇敢藉口

下定決心沈默就讓沈默為我們追究
你和我這一刻無聲的耳語交流卻突然震耳欲聾

一字一句一瞬間走了火一天一點一轉眼入了魔
忘了我從什麼時候
忘了你為什麼能夠讓我
一步一步走火入魔

一字一句一瞬間走了火一天一點一轉眼入了魔
如果你有相同感受
感受到有種突然的衝動
放肆一次走火入魔
和我

一直猜一直想一直的揣摩
一直到你變成甜蜜的心痛
如果可以把如果變成結果

下定決心執著就讓執著為我們突破
我和你的小說這時候出現煙火讓情節充滿感動