Today’s post, unfortunately will be a boring one, in contrast to what I had before. ‘Sigh…’ is the only thing I can do. It’s super boring, and tiring when you have loads of work to do, what more if you delay some of them till they stack up just like piles of haystack in farms. Yea, that’s me. I haven’t been really able breathe, have my own personal space, do things I like to do, talk to people I want to talk to, have a good night sleep, enjoy a scoop or two of ice cream, treat my tongue to a slice of chocolate-mint, shopping, cycling and movies. These were the things I usually do when I still had the time, and true to say that the word here is ‘were’. Haih..
And now the worst thing is that I have to face people I don’t wanna see everyday. It sucks. My gudness. I have changed a lot. From a jovial and crazy kinda gal, who knows her limits as in when to stop, I had transformed into a killing machine who have nothing in my mind but rage and frustration. Thanks to the environment of course. I had given up on doing homework. Really. That’s another change. Used to love them. I used vulgar words on last week with my parents at home. >.< I felt so different. It was the second time in my life that I was so vulgar. Of course there’s still some sense of humanity in me-
I FELT GUILTY.
Sigh. .Fate was never on my side ( I used to believe in lucks, but now NO). I had encountered so many disasters. I felt so devastated. Life wasn’t being fair to me. I avoided many peoples, friends and family. I missed people who had already passed away. I’m getting too greedy, I want everything good to be mine. I started day-dreaming. I do not give in anymore. Sympathy is not my game anymore. It’s history. Sigh.
I wish I could still gather courage in me to penetrate this emotional and spiritual barrier. Someone please lend me a hand .. arhhhh >.<
Friday, August 21, 2009
101's back
Anyone still remember my 101 list?! =)
Let's check my achievement...here we go
+ FAMILY & RELATIONSHIPS
01. Visit my grandparents once a week and consistently- Goal completed
02. Take my younger sister to shopping with my own car.
03. Visit my cousin's grave and bring him flowers.
04. Make a new friend. ++ Goal completed ( Friends, I shall say)
05. Make a quality friend. Goal completed
06. Find a wife my older brother. =)
07. Spend a week with my mom. ++ goal completed
08. Get engaged (in the future).
09. Plan a wedding (in the future).
10. 'Kacau' my friends at the place where they worked. =P ++ goal completed
11. Plan a special 'just because' outing with him.
12. Get in contact with my best friend from primary & high school.
13. Spend a day with my cousins.++ Goal completed
14. Play W.O.W with friends.++ Goal completed
15. Go on a date a week for 6 months with my future 'him'.
16. Visit Sarah in whatever place she is in at the time.
+ CREATIVE & LEARN
17. Redesign my website. ++ goal completed
18. Create something on canvas.++ goal completed
19. Design new birthday cards. ++ goal completed
20. Update my portfolio. ++ goal completed
21. Take violin lessons.
22. Learn flash.++ goal completed
23. Take a pottery class.
24. Sign up for a dancing class. ++ goal completed
26. Visit the library, check out some good books.++ goal completed
27. Blog on design-friends for a month straight.
28. Take a language class. ++ goal completed (Going to learn France next, hope so)
29. Take a photo a day for 6 months and make a coffee table book.+ completed the 1st part
+ ENTERTAINMENT & TRAVEL
30. Visit Israel.
31. Live in another city. ++ goal completed
32. Go to Seattle.
33. Visit a wonder of the world.
34. Ride a train to an entirely new city or state.
35. Go apple picking.
36. Take a weekend trip to a different city.++ goal completed
37. Go tree house camping.
+ ORGANIZE
38. Clear out my inbox and keep emails organized.++ goal completed
39. Clean out my garage.++ goal completed
40. Clean up my room. ++ goal completed
41. Redesign my room. ++ goal completed
42. Organize my computer files, transfer files from old computer.++ goal completed
43. Buy a hard drive. ++ goal completed
44. Get around to backing up my computer because time machine is awesome and I have it. ++ goal completd
45. Organize my bookmarks. and share the good ones! ++ goal completed
+ FOR MYSELF
46. Start a workout, get healthy or stay in shape.
47. Not eat out for 2 months straight. (Trying hard to do so)
48. Make my bed for a month. ++ goal completed (In hostel)
49. Encourage someone to make a list! ++ goal completed
50. Plant a time capsule.
51. Keep a prayer journal.
52. Start a list with him.
53. Try a new haircut that I have never had.
54. Go to a movie by myself.
55. Enter myself into a competition.++ goal completed (in MHS/MKB)
56. Write down 5 good things a day for a month straight. (or longer)
57. Put aside rm50 a month for 6 months and then go on a shopping spree.
58. Write a "if anything ever happens to me" letter.
+ FOR OTHERS
59. Volunteer at orphanage with the kids.
60. Surprise someone.++ goal completed * simple task*
61. Write 10 handwritten letters.
62. Send some fun mail to 5 friends.++ goal completed
63. Invest my time in someone, be intentional.
64. Find a organization or missionary to support consistently.
65. Put together 5 Christmas shoeboxes.
66. Donate 5 bags of clothing.
67. Donate rm500.
68. Donate 101 items.
69. Treat a friend out to tea and scones.++ goal completed
70. Pray for someone for a month straight.++ goal completed
+ FUN
71. Make gourmet cupcakes.++ goal completed
72. Build a snowman.(Impossible in my place, I know)
73. Get a nice flat screen tv. ++ goal completed
74. Go on a picnic with my friends
75. Talk a walk in the rain.
76. Enter casino. (Still haven’t reach the age)
77. Snag a treasury. ++ goal completed
78. Host a swap party with friends.
79. Host a giveaway at my blog.
80. Attend a gameshow, talkshow, or something tv-related.++ goal completed
81. Blog daily for 30 consecutive days.
82. Win something, anything! I never win things. hehe.
83. Go to the beach and relax, build a sandcastle. ++ goal completed
84. Bake lace cookies and chocolate chipless cookies. ++ goal completed
85. Send a message in a bottle.
86. Host a crepe / holiday party with my friends.
87. Watch Star Wars...maybe. (I've never seen it, but it's funny to see people's reactions when I tell them)
+ STUDIES & MONEY
88. Add 10 new items to my jewelry box.
89. Start up my new life of studies.++ goal completed
90. Do a craft show.
91. Start a job, design-related.
92. Apply at university I longed for.++ goal completed
93. Get my finances in order.++ goal completed
94. Invest my money in something and start saving! ++ goal completed
95. See if I can live off my own income through my part time job.
96. Put away rm200 a month for 6 months straight.
97. Throw away my chemistry and biology books ++ goal completed
98. Start and stick to a budget.++ goal completed
99. Cut coupons and try to save some $ for 3 months.
100. Do not buy anything for myself for one whole month.(Extremely hard man)
101. At the end of the 1001 days, put aside rm25 in savings for each task completed.
Let's check my achievement...here we go
+ FAMILY & RELATIONSHIPS
01. Visit my grandparents once a week and consistently- Goal completed
02. Take my younger sister to shopping with my own car.
03. Visit my cousin's grave and bring him flowers.
04. Make a new friend. ++ Goal completed ( Friends, I shall say)
05. Make a quality friend. Goal completed
06. Find a wife my older brother. =)
07. Spend a week with my mom. ++ goal completed
08. Get engaged (in the future).
09. Plan a wedding (in the future).
10. 'Kacau' my friends at the place where they worked. =P ++ goal completed
11. Plan a special 'just because' outing with him.
12. Get in contact with my best friend from primary & high school.
13. Spend a day with my cousins.++ Goal completed
14. Play W.O.W with friends.++ Goal completed
15. Go on a date a week for 6 months with my future 'him'.
16. Visit Sarah in whatever place she is in at the time.
+ CREATIVE & LEARN
17. Redesign my website. ++ goal completed
18. Create something on canvas.++ goal completed
19. Design new birthday cards. ++ goal completed
20. Update my portfolio. ++ goal completed
21. Take violin lessons.
22. Learn flash.++ goal completed
23. Take a pottery class.
24. Sign up for a dancing class. ++ goal completed
26. Visit the library, check out some good books.++ goal completed
27. Blog on design-friends for a month straight.
28. Take a language class. ++ goal completed (Going to learn France next, hope so)
29. Take a photo a day for 6 months and make a coffee table book.+ completed the 1st part
+ ENTERTAINMENT & TRAVEL
30. Visit Israel.
31. Live in another city. ++ goal completed
32. Go to Seattle.
33. Visit a wonder of the world.
34. Ride a train to an entirely new city or state.
35. Go apple picking.
36. Take a weekend trip to a different city.++ goal completed
37. Go tree house camping.
+ ORGANIZE
38. Clear out my inbox and keep emails organized.++ goal completed
39. Clean out my garage.++ goal completed
40. Clean up my room. ++ goal completed
41. Redesign my room. ++ goal completed
42. Organize my computer files, transfer files from old computer.++ goal completed
43. Buy a hard drive. ++ goal completed
44. Get around to backing up my computer because time machine is awesome and I have it. ++ goal completd
45. Organize my bookmarks. and share the good ones! ++ goal completed
+ FOR MYSELF
46. Start a workout, get healthy or stay in shape.
47. Not eat out for 2 months straight. (Trying hard to do so)
48. Make my bed for a month. ++ goal completed (In hostel)
49. Encourage someone to make a list! ++ goal completed
50. Plant a time capsule.
51. Keep a prayer journal.
52. Start a list with him.
53. Try a new haircut that I have never had.
54. Go to a movie by myself.
55. Enter myself into a competition.++ goal completed (in MHS/MKB)
56. Write down 5 good things a day for a month straight. (or longer)
57. Put aside rm50 a month for 6 months and then go on a shopping spree.
58. Write a "if anything ever happens to me" letter.
+ FOR OTHERS
59. Volunteer at orphanage with the kids.
60. Surprise someone.++ goal completed * simple task*
61. Write 10 handwritten letters.
62. Send some fun mail to 5 friends.++ goal completed
63. Invest my time in someone, be intentional.
64. Find a organization or missionary to support consistently.
65. Put together 5 Christmas shoeboxes.
66. Donate 5 bags of clothing.
67. Donate rm500.
68. Donate 101 items.
69. Treat a friend out to tea and scones.++ goal completed
70. Pray for someone for a month straight.++ goal completed
+ FUN
71. Make gourmet cupcakes.++ goal completed
72. Build a snowman.(Impossible in my place, I know)
73. Get a nice flat screen tv. ++ goal completed
74. Go on a picnic with my friends
75. Talk a walk in the rain.
76. Enter casino. (Still haven’t reach the age)
77. Snag a treasury. ++ goal completed
78. Host a swap party with friends.
79. Host a giveaway at my blog.
80. Attend a gameshow, talkshow, or something tv-related.++ goal completed
81. Blog daily for 30 consecutive days.
82. Win something, anything! I never win things. hehe.
83. Go to the beach and relax, build a sandcastle. ++ goal completed
84. Bake lace cookies and chocolate chipless cookies. ++ goal completed
85. Send a message in a bottle.
86. Host a crepe / holiday party with my friends.
87. Watch Star Wars...maybe. (I've never seen it, but it's funny to see people's reactions when I tell them)
+ STUDIES & MONEY
88. Add 10 new items to my jewelry box.
89. Start up my new life of studies.++ goal completed
90. Do a craft show.
91. Start a job, design-related.
92. Apply at university I longed for.++ goal completed
93. Get my finances in order.++ goal completed
94. Invest my money in something and start saving! ++ goal completed
95. See if I can live off my own income through my part time job.
96. Put away rm200 a month for 6 months straight.
97. Throw away my chemistry and biology books ++ goal completed
98. Start and stick to a budget.++ goal completed
99. Cut coupons and try to save some $ for 3 months.
100. Do not buy anything for myself for one whole month.(Extremely hard man)
101. At the end of the 1001 days, put aside rm25 in savings for each task completed.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
加油 !!
不明白，
真的不明白 上天为何总是不眷恋好人 。。
他那坚韧不拔地挨了一年多的苦，
得病时刚好是大学快要毕业的时候 ，
当时看着他就算再辛苦 也坚持到学校考试 ，
还考得了好成绩。。当时真的很为他高兴。。
每次看着那像钢笔一样粗的针插在手上
就连旁人都心疼的忍不住流泪，
他总是忍着泪水笑着地对我们说，
等他康复以后 一定要和我们到处去旅游 一起去喝荔枝冰
结果就终于等到了从生的机会，
为何就在所有人最期盼的那一刻 却带来了如此残酷的消息
以往无论多少的苦头 他都坚强地熬过了
为何上天还是选择继续这样地对待他。。。
我不明白。。
如今都已成了事实 那我们都只好接受
希望你不要放弃 因为无论你做的任何决定，
我们永远都会支持。。只要你不放弃。。
希望上天会保佑你 明天手术成功,
也保佑我 能申请到我所要的大学..
记得我们都会在这里等你回来 ！
明天, 我们一起为未来加油吧 ！！
真的不明白 上天为何总是不眷恋好人 。。
他那坚韧不拔地挨了一年多的苦，
得病时刚好是大学快要毕业的时候 ，
当时看着他就算再辛苦 也坚持到学校考试 ，
还考得了好成绩。。当时真的很为他高兴。。
每次看着那像钢笔一样粗的针插在手上
就连旁人都心疼的忍不住流泪，
他总是忍着泪水笑着地对我们说，
等他康复以后 一定要和我们到处去旅游 一起去喝荔枝冰
结果就终于等到了从生的机会，
为何就在所有人最期盼的那一刻 却带来了如此残酷的消息
以往无论多少的苦头 他都坚强地熬过了
为何上天还是选择继续这样地对待他。。。
我不明白。。
如今都已成了事实 那我们都只好接受
希望你不要放弃 因为无论你做的任何决定，
我们永远都会支持。。只要你不放弃。。
希望上天会保佑你 明天手术成功,
也保佑我 能申请到我所要的大学..
记得我们都会在这里等你回来 ！
明天, 我们一起为未来加油吧 ！！
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Technical error? Damn..
Read this news...
GEORGE TOWN: A technical blunder on Universiti Sains Malaysia’s (USM) official website has created confusion among 4,574 students about their eligibility to enter the university.
And USM deputy vice-chancellor (Academic and International Affairs) Prof Ahmad Shukri Mustapa Kamal apologised unreservedly for it. The students, who had received offer letters via soft copies on the website, were left disappointed when they were told of a technical mistake by USM.
The university had wrongfully uploaded all the names, together with 3,599 successful applicants, on the website.Prof Ahmad Shukri said that about 8,000 students had pre-qualified for the university from a total of 22,000 students who had applied to enter USM.
“They met the minimum criteria to enter the university in accordance to the programme of USM.
“However, after the final three-day selection from May 26-28, we have decided to take in only 3,599 of them.
“The remaining names will be submitted to the University Admission Unit (UPU) main pool for selection into other public universities,” he said during a press conference Sunday.
Ahmad Shukri said USM only realised their mistake at about 3pm on Saturday, some 24 hours after the names of the 8,000 odd students were put up at the website on Friday.
“We took two hours to rectify the problem. By 5pm on Saturday, only the actual successful applicants were notified with the issuance of offer letters and letter of acceptance.
“We regret the mistake that caused inconvenience to the anxious parents and students.
“I apologise for the mistake and USM will do whatever we can to solve the matter,” he said.
He said USM had since notified all the successful applicants via SMSes and phone calls, adding that an official letter would also be sent out.
He said this was the first time that USM was selecting students directly after it was granted Apex status recently.
He assured that the names of students, who were not accepted by USM, would reach UPU.
“We have a short time in notifying the successful candidates. We have no choice but to inform them via SMSes, website and phone calls,” he said.
On the officer who committed the mistake, Ahmad Shukri said he wanted to resolve the matter before carrying out a post mortem and deal with the culprit.
In Petaling Jaya, Higher Education department director-general Datuk Prof Radin Umar Radin Sohadi Students said that those rejected by USM will be placed UPU’s main pool for selection into other public universities.
He said USM had been given autonomy to organise its own intake under its Apex status.
“Whoever is qualified, is offered a place and accepts the offer will go to USM. These students will also be excluded from the main pool.
“However, if they are rejected by USM - then they will be put into the main pool automatically. This process of selection will be done soon and will be announced in the third week of June,” he said when contacted on Sunday.
Meanwhile, a father of a 20-year-old girl came to The Star office on Sunday to complain about the anxiety caused by confusion in USM.
His daughter who refused to be named, checked the university’s website on Friday evening and found her name among the list of successful applicants for the dentistry course.
“She clicked her acceptance for the course and an acknowledgement notice appeared on the website,” said Lim, who showed the acceptance letter to the Star.
“We were so happy but only for a day,” said Lim, 49, when met yesterday.
On Saturday, the Tunku Abdul Rahman college student began to hear news about the list of succesful applicants being changed.
“True enough, we checked on Saturday at around 11pm and her name was no longer on the list.
“And today morning, a SMS was sent to her stating that she was not a successful applicant and it was a technical error.
“USM is an Apex university and it is supposedly an elite university.
“But all they can say about the confusion is that is a ‘technical error’?,” he said.
I must highlight the word TECHNICAL ERROR here.. I was so so so mad while reading this news. Supposed that is not my business because I didn't send my application to USM, but since it takes away my friend's hope, and thousands people's hope, then that's my biggest concern now. Let people happy for just a few moments then break their hope.....
Arghhh, my mind really blank now. What USM gonna be top university in M'sia in the future, all tipu org punya.
如果道歉有用的话，那世界上警察要来干嘛。。。
*Just ignore the grammar and vocabulary mistakes, i hv no mood to mind about it.
GEORGE TOWN: A technical blunder on Universiti Sains Malaysia’s (USM) official website has created confusion among 4,574 students about their eligibility to enter the university.
And USM deputy vice-chancellor (Academic and International Affairs) Prof Ahmad Shukri Mustapa Kamal apologised unreservedly for it. The students, who had received offer letters via soft copies on the website, were left disappointed when they were told of a technical mistake by USM.
The university had wrongfully uploaded all the names, together with 3,599 successful applicants, on the website.Prof Ahmad Shukri said that about 8,000 students had pre-qualified for the university from a total of 22,000 students who had applied to enter USM.
“They met the minimum criteria to enter the university in accordance to the programme of USM.
“However, after the final three-day selection from May 26-28, we have decided to take in only 3,599 of them.
“The remaining names will be submitted to the University Admission Unit (UPU) main pool for selection into other public universities,” he said during a press conference Sunday.
Ahmad Shukri said USM only realised their mistake at about 3pm on Saturday, some 24 hours after the names of the 8,000 odd students were put up at the website on Friday.
“We took two hours to rectify the problem. By 5pm on Saturday, only the actual successful applicants were notified with the issuance of offer letters and letter of acceptance.
“We regret the mistake that caused inconvenience to the anxious parents and students.
“I apologise for the mistake and USM will do whatever we can to solve the matter,” he said.
He said USM had since notified all the successful applicants via SMSes and phone calls, adding that an official letter would also be sent out.
He said this was the first time that USM was selecting students directly after it was granted Apex status recently.
He assured that the names of students, who were not accepted by USM, would reach UPU.
“We have a short time in notifying the successful candidates. We have no choice but to inform them via SMSes, website and phone calls,” he said.
On the officer who committed the mistake, Ahmad Shukri said he wanted to resolve the matter before carrying out a post mortem and deal with the culprit.
In Petaling Jaya, Higher Education department director-general Datuk Prof Radin Umar Radin Sohadi Students said that those rejected by USM will be placed UPU’s main pool for selection into other public universities.
He said USM had been given autonomy to organise its own intake under its Apex status.
“Whoever is qualified, is offered a place and accepts the offer will go to USM. These students will also be excluded from the main pool.
“However, if they are rejected by USM - then they will be put into the main pool automatically. This process of selection will be done soon and will be announced in the third week of June,” he said when contacted on Sunday.
Meanwhile, a father of a 20-year-old girl came to The Star office on Sunday to complain about the anxiety caused by confusion in USM.
His daughter who refused to be named, checked the university’s website on Friday evening and found her name among the list of successful applicants for the dentistry course.
“She clicked her acceptance for the course and an acknowledgement notice appeared on the website,” said Lim, who showed the acceptance letter to the Star.
“We were so happy but only for a day,” said Lim, 49, when met yesterday.
On Saturday, the Tunku Abdul Rahman college student began to hear news about the list of succesful applicants being changed.
“True enough, we checked on Saturday at around 11pm and her name was no longer on the list.
“And today morning, a SMS was sent to her stating that she was not a successful applicant and it was a technical error.
“USM is an Apex university and it is supposedly an elite university.
“But all they can say about the confusion is that is a ‘technical error’?,” he said.
I must highlight the word TECHNICAL ERROR here.. I was so so so mad while reading this news. Supposed that is not my business because I didn't send my application to USM, but since it takes away my friend's hope, and thousands people's hope, then that's my biggest concern now. Let people happy for just a few moments then break their hope.....
Arghhh, my mind really blank now. What USM gonna be top university in M'sia in the future, all tipu org punya.
如果道歉有用的话，那世界上警察要来干嘛。。。
*Just ignore the grammar and vocabulary mistakes, i hv no mood to mind about it.
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