Lovely buds of yellow and blue,

Fill the lands with colours and clue,

As the Southern Winds of Warmth slice through,

You know it’s true,

That i miss you too.

I'm back...

I'm back..

I'm back...

hehe...stay tuned with more updates about my bangkok trip yea

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yynsun..


is



boarding....



to



thailand


tomorrow...



sawasdeekap~~ =)




Holiday mode: ON

As Though Life Itself Isn’t Tough Enough..

Sigh… It’s again a sad thing to start off a post with a sigh. But heck, what to do? When life’s really burning at your feet, no matter how hard you try not to think about it or try to avoid it, you still feel it searing every corners and sides of your toes. I’ve sighed till there’s no other sighs superior than mine. Can you imagine that? Sometimes I don’t understand why I sigh so much but I definitely did not choose to sigh. >.< Maybe it’s inherent or inborn.

I really hate to post sad columns, but by chance that whenever I have the opportunity to blog, I’m filled with frustrations. That’s why my ‘graciousparadise’ is filled with sad posts.Not gracious at all. Sigh.. Only when someone has lost so many things, people start to pay attention to that person. That’s what I saw lately. Everyone had their problems. I had mine too. The thing is that, I don’t know how to phrase mine. It doesn’t look complex, but in actual fact things are all really messy. And they are all really disappointing. Certain people just can’t seem to understand certain things sometimes. And certain people tend to forget about their grassroots. There are some who do not even bother to see to the things people ask of them. A handful of them like to pinch. The rest point their noses high as though they want to collect rainwater in their nostrils.

When I turned left today, I saw a guy who takes things real light as long as it doesn’t hurt him. When I turned right, I met a girl who thinks she has everything when she does what the guy she likes, likes to do. Above me, I saw a group of young boys trying to please themselves by telling each other how much people around them had cared for them, and under my nose I saw a bunch of filthy animals thinking that they’re greater than any creature ever existed, but they had forgotten that they’re even cheaper than the drain moss that I collected for my biology project before. It’s so lame when people start to realise things when it’s too late.

What can I do?

Why on Earth, do not people learn and deliver when time hasn’t become the limiting factor? Why gotta wait till after words are said and actions are done only will people start to do what they’re supposed to do when it wasn’t too late but learn that they regret, from that very point of time, when it’s too late? Things aren’t that complicated unless we think they are. Humans I think, which I thought I was wrong earlier, really are selfish, as time had failed to prove me wrong until today. It saddens me to discover how ignorant certain people are and how unwilling people are to change and so. But it wonders me how certain filthy creatures behave nowadays. Pardon me if I hurt anyone in this way. If anyone noticed, I have not mentioned anyone in this column, but everyone is welcomed to do a role call as you go the the list.

Life’s not that easy, especially when God make it difficult for us. .

Today’s post, unfortunately will be a boring one, in contrast to what I had before. ‘Sigh…’ is the only thing I can do. It’s super boring, and tiring when you have loads of work to do, what more if you delay some of them till they stack up just like piles of haystack in farms. Yea, that’s me. I haven’t been really able breathe, have my own personal space, do things I like to do, talk to people I want to talk to, have a good night sleep, enjoy a scoop or two of ice cream, treat my tongue to a slice of chocolate-mint, shopping, cycling and movies. These were the things I usually do when I still had the time, and true to say that the word here is ‘were’. Haih..

And now the worst thing is that I have to face people I don’t wanna see everyday. It sucks. My gudness. I have changed a lot. From a jovial and crazy kinda gal, who knows her limits as in when to stop, I had transformed into a killing machine who have nothing in my mind but rage and frustration. Thanks to the environment of course. I had given up on doing homework. Really. That’s another change. Used to love them. I used vulgar words on last week with my parents at home. >.< I felt so different. It was the second time in my life that I was so vulgar. Of course there’s still some sense of humanity in me-


I FELT GUILTY.


Sigh. .Fate was never on my side ( I used to believe in lucks, but now NO). I had encountered so many disasters. I felt so devastated. Life wasn’t being fair to me. I avoided many peoples, friends and family. I missed people who had already passed away. I’m getting too greedy, I want everything good to be mine. I started day-dreaming. I do not give in anymore. Sympathy is not my game anymore. It’s history. Sigh.
I wish I could still gather courage in me to penetrate this emotional and spiritual barrier. Someone please lend me a hand .. arhhhh >.<