난 힘이 들때면 Lucky in my life
그대가 꿈처럼 다가오네요
슬퍼 질때면 난 Lucky in my dream
그대 따스하게 날 꼭 감싸주네요
언제나 이렇게 웃어요 난
세상이 힘들게 해도
난 절대 눈물은 보이고 싶진 않죠
내 맘을 모르는 그대라도
멀리서라도 그대의 그 미소를
간직할 수 있어 다행이죠
울고 싶을땐 Lucky in my love
상상속 그대가 멋져보여요
울적해지면 난 Lucky in my world
그대 꿈결처럼 날 꼭 안아주죠
언제나 이렇게 웃어요 난
세상이 힘들게 해도
난 절대 눈물은 보이고 싶진 않죠
내 맘을 모르는 그대라도
멀리서라도 그대의 그 미소를
간직할 수 있어 다행이죠

모든게 아름다워 난 너무 행복한걸
외로운 세상에 난 또 내 소원을 담아요
언제나 이렇게 웃어요 난
세상이 힘들게 해도
난 절대 눈물은 보이고 싶진 않죠
내 맘을 모르는 그대라도
멀리서라도 그대의 그 미소를
간직할 수 있어 다행이죠
그대 한걸음만 다가와요

This is me ..
I love to draw, and I used to draw..
One of the way to release my tension..
Know that I’m not in the right mood lately..
I choose to hide away from this ugly reality and indulge myself in ‘drawing’..
Despite of knowing that I’m having a test which carry 20% of the subject soon
Cause I just couldn’t find any other better way than this..to express my deep feeling

I do enjoy this kind of feeling..
Shut off my mind and lock myself in the room..
Crying, shouting and laughing madly alone..being emo
And thinking of nothing..
I just love this kind of feeling..

Stress..

Released..

Released..

Released…

And back to reality…

Don’t worry bout me guys, I’m alright
fully recharged =)

It is not true that life is one damn thing after another; it is one damn thing over and over..

I’m sick..
I feel so upset..
I don’t feel good..
I’m so exhausted..
I had nightmares for this few nights, which makes me so sleepless lately..
I don’t feel to talk recently..
I feel so heavy this moment..
I wish I could stay in house for longer time, even just for one more hour..
I wish he could be here to pamper me in this moment..
I wish I could just lay on bed and have my mind rest, but I got a pile of works awaiting for me..
I’m totally blank, have no idea to solve my tutorials at all..
I hate being alone in room..
I hate this kind of feeling..
I hate…

I just hate everything…

Sorry for being emo again =(

Filtration, Galvanisation, and Chocolatisation

Yeah, my life has undergone three processes, filtration, galvanisation, and chocolatisation, in just a day. Today was quite a blessed day, besides the fact that there were some complications with my breathing.. Urm,I tried to adapt to the changes to my life through the three difficult processes, and I hope things will turn out fine. Today was the first trial run for me, and things went on okay. It feels good when we care less about our surroundings, especially about things and people who have nothing to do with us, and of course it feels great not to worry too much about peoples’ asses. =P

I felt slightly lighter today. Filtration process has helped me expel filthy animals outta my life, while the Galvanisation process required me to be mean to mean people and to shield myself from their words. Chocolatisation was the best part of the whole set of processes. It simply helps me through thick and coarse the sweet way, but a lot of people have to pay the price for me to walk this path. Lolx.. I made it sound so scary. Actually its just a minor change. But I wasn’t joking la.. thanks all my friends for being my companions during the hard times..

*feel like biting chocolate now =)